I feel just really
happy today. You know that good happy kind of feeling that just is from the
inside out. Some days I just have that.
Some days it’s nowhere to be seen but today is a good day and I will take it. Things in my life are going well. Just mostly
plugging along but that is well enough all things considered. About time
honestly. The past couple weeks I felt a little all over the place. The past
couple days have been very good. MUCH better.
This is me today, and I am HAPPY!!!
Let me see. Last night I decided about 4:30 PM that I just
was going to go home and run outside. I stepped outside and while it was hot it
wasn’t miserable and I figured the areas I wanted to run had some shade
coverage so thus it would be the right decision. My decision boiled down to this. If I went to
the gym I wouldn’t get there until about 5:15 or so. I’d have to do class at 5:30 so I wouldn’t
get to run beforehand. I’d do the ½ hour
class and it would be fine but it wouldn’t be a run. You know. And then It’d be 6 PM before I’d be free to
run but of course I’d probably end up talking to Amanda and that would make it
later and honestly by this time I would have zero desire to run 4.5 miles. At 4:30 I felt ready to run, by 6 something I
am sure the desire would have gone away.
I just made the executive decision that last night was a run
night. Coupled with the reality that
most of my body was sore from weights and strength training that taking a night
off seemed like the most appropriate thing to do. So I went home, loaded up my run belt, my
Garmin my earphones and away I went.
Like I said, I was sore. I was
hot. It was hot out and I wasn’t sure I really wanted to do this. But by this
point I was home and I told myself if I didn’t do this I wouldn’t exercise at
all and that would suck so I simply had to do this. That as soon as I was done
with this run I’d be done for the night and all things would be fine. I gave myself permission to ignore my Garmin
watch and instead just run whatever pace I could to just run. To try and not worry about times or paces or
distances. Just run.
I have to admit that it is much harder to get in solid runs
during the week as comparative to weekend races. The excitement is just so much greater at an
event which is certainly why I am mostly addicted to them. There is no incentive to run hard for a
little neighborhood evening run. Other
than I am trying to tick off all my boxes on my running plan. Which is very important to me. So I run. I was expecting to go pretty
slow. And while I was not winning any
pace records I was keeping my pace around 10:15-10:20 minute miles naturally
just doing what felt right. I thought
this was awesome for me, given that it was hot out, in the evening when I just
didn’t want to, and overall my body was exhausted. This was day 4 in a row of exercise and I had
a sore ass and legs. But I ran on.
The neighborhood was lovely and I just tried to enjoy myself
as much as I possibly could. I don’t run
with a route in mind. I just go and twist and turn at my will. It’s one neighborhood with lots of outlets
and lots of areas and its close to my house so I am never that far off from
anything. So I just run and run and when
I am close to wanting to finish I start to head home. Of course this typically
means that I end up not exactly at the mileage I want to be at. I was supposed to run a 4.5 mile run
yesterday. When I hit about 3.75 miles I decided it was time to turn around and
head back towards the house. Of course there are a lot of dead end streets and
I ended up having to pretty much run out and back farther than I had planned. I
hit 4.5 miles on the Garmin and I was still not by the house. Guess it’s going
to be a little longer run tonight. I really didn’t have a choice I was not home
so I had to keep going. But I was
close. I pretty much knew that I was
going to be right around 5 miles and as I turned the corner to my house there
it was, 5 miles on the Garmin. My time
was like 52 minutes. I was fine with
that. Especially because of the natural
slowing for busy streets and people and such.
52 minutes was better than I thought I was going to do when I started.
I burned 540 calories and called it good. I did not need to do anything else for the
night. I was nursing sore well
everything. So that was just dandy. Tonight does not call for a run on my
training plan and I am kind of relieved by that. Of course that doesn’t mean that I won’t get
in a little bit of mileage as a warm up at the gym. Tonight I intend to take an hour strength
training class with Amanda. It is at
6:15 so that means when I get to the gym I will have about 30 minutes to kill
beforehand. Don’t think I want to run the whole 30 minutes but maybe 15 and
then do some other stuff. I have to run another
4.5 tomorrow so I will just make it all work.
As I am going on day after day of exercise I can start to
feel my body fade a bit. I know it’s
time to slow it down a smidge but we will see.
I still have 2 days to go. Friday
is rest day before I tackle an obstacle course race on Saturday and a half on
Sunday. Regardless, I am sure I will
power thru because that is honestly just what I do.
I’ve been having a lot of fun with clip in colored hair
extensions. I just have pink and red but I really like them. I feel like they
do add some pizazz to my hair. And
speaking of hair I should really say how freaking much I love my hair
extensions again. I honestly can’t
believe I went that long without them. They just make me happy. I feel like such a different, more confident,
happier person when them in. It’s like a total attitude/game changer for
me. I feel sexy and that isn’t a bad
thing.
Pink Hair yesterday, Red Hair today.
I also woke up today feeling much trimmer than normal. Like
I feel like I am slimming out, even though the scale doesn’t always cooperate
and there is no measurable proof of this.
I just “feel” like things are smaller or tighter. Of course it’s just as likely this is all in
my head as well.
I’m beyond excited for life once again just in general as a
whole and accomplishing my dreams. I’m
excited to be tackling the marathon in 3 months and honestly having this
vacation going in 3 months is all kinds of crazy motivating. 3 months is really
real and obtainable right now and that is so exciting. Makes me want to push myself even more. It’s actually a lot to comprehend that I
have maintained my weight for this long.
The last time I went to Maui which was the end of May/beginning of June
2013 was kind of my celebration of reaching my goal weight again. I went to Maui happy, healthy and comfortable
in my own skin. At that point in time I
just barely joined the gym but had not done any strength training yet. I hadn’t had a personal training session. I
hadn’t met Amanda. It’s crazy to think about honestly. But I looked good. I weighed in the 140’s. I
don’t know what I weighed probably like 145 or something but that is without
muscle really.
And now, it will be 2 years 3 months later and I am still in
the same weight range but with a lot more pretty muscles. But holy hell I went the whole time frame in
between Maui trips without gaining back all the weight. That’s a big deal for
me. Proof that anything is possible really,
that anything can happen. I promise you
when I went to Maui last time I had no idea that I’d be back to run a
marathon. I would have laughed my ass
off at you. Even though I liked to run,
I did not think that would ever happen.
So never say never.
Also, I’m pretty excited to wear a hot bikini on the beach.
It’s kind of secretly always a dream of mine to feel confident enough to wear
one in public. Sure, I’ve worn bikini’s in Maui before but I’m not sure I’ve
ever felt as good about my body as I do right now. It’s flawed in lots of ways
but its strong and I’m happy with it.
Things are definitely
progressing along the right track for me.
That is until something throws a wrench into the plans which ultimately
always happens because that is life. I am well aware of this. So just for today
I will take the happy feeling and smile as long as possible.
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