tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21795465481637757662024-02-06T21:33:02.130-08:00Emily's BIG adventureEmily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.comBlogger554125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-2729381392372729472016-04-11T16:24:00.001-07:002016-04-11T16:26:25.616-07:00Hello from the Other Side<br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hello. </span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I am fighting tooth and nail to refrain from breaking into
Adelle lyrics, right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because the song
is overplayed and yet I can’t seem to stop the song from swirling around in my
head as I write this out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because it’s
been a VERY long time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because apparently
big blog hiatus’s are what I do from time to time, but we all knew that. At
least I have not checked out from the internet world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hello, Instagram. You have become the best
thing in the world and somehow the worst at the same time because you are an
addiction that is incomparable to most. </span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Here’s the good news world. I am still plugging along. I
have had a fairly stressful and depressing beginning of 2016. Not what I would
have hoped for but I seem to have slightly rebounded all things
considered.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am just trying to figure
out my new life focus or restructure my desires to different pursuits.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I think I can finally say I am over the whole run a half
marathon every weekend thing. Not because I can’t. Physically I am more than
capable of running every weekend but because it doesn’t hold the same appeal at
the moment for me. I’ve finally played that out. Been there, done that. With
that said, I am NOT over running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
think it has finally started to subside to the point where I have found some
balance about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want to run, but its
quality over quantity.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t stomach
spending $100 a weekend to run another half that ultimately isn’t worth the
price tag.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am currently training for
another full marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I’m going to
do this thing, the running thing, it’s going to be something that challenges
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Full marathons scare the shit out of
me. Yes, I ran 3 of them last year and yes I am every bit as terrified as I was
when I originally signed up for one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
fact, in some ways, even more so because now I know what I’m getting myself in
for.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They are a completely torturous process
that I am sure is probably ultimately horrible for your body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But we do it. And we gladly sign up for the
torture.</span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I am finding marathon training the second time around a
different process.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t have the same
I have to do this attitude, although, I am still Emily and<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>therefore will still do every single run.
That’s who I am after all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the
desire level isn’t exactly the same.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have found some new passions over the past couple months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In a nutshell my gym lost classes. I
volunteered to keep doing them for the couple people who took them with me.
There was this little group of us that always did the classes. I said I’d write
them up and we could still do them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From
January until about 2 weeks ago I was doing those 4 days a week. It was
fun.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">2 weeks ago a big new fancy gym opened up in the area and I
signed up. It was like heaven. It reminded me of my very first fabulous gym
that made me fall in love with gyms to begin with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am beyond happy there. Some of the people
from my old gym followed me over and now I’m leading my own group workouts two
times a week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am voluntarily doing
this you see, as I am not licensed and therefore it is really just a group of
friends working out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m having fun with
it all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes it feels like
pressure, sometimes it’s just fun as hell.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Balance. I forever search for the balance of life. Don’t we
all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve been up, I’ve been down, I’ve
been everywhere and which way in between.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It happens. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s funny how things
change.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How some things stay exactly the
same too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My best friend Amanda is like
6 months pregnant at the moment. She’s still working out with me all the time.
But very soon we will have a little baby boy in our lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I swear I’ve even become closer to Amanda
over the past couple months if that’s even possible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I don’t weigh myself. Like pretty much ever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why torture myself when I’ve seem to come to
a good place in my life where balance exists on that front.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe I’m way out of balance in a lot of
areas but I’m pretty happy and comfortable in my own imperfect skin.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m not the smallest I’ve ever been but I’m
pretty okay with what I see. And I have a ton of muscles so the weight on the
scale is fairly irrelevant.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am what I
am, and what I am is a strong woman who loves working out for her well-being
and health and who also loves food and eats far too much of it (including
crappy bad for you food) and somehow it still all balances out. </span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">No need to go down the anxiety, obsessive compulsive food
scale path.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Been there, done that a
million times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With that said, I’m sure
I will eventually get on the scale again. I peek every so often and try to let
it roll off my back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m happy mostly,
so who cares. When you can like the image you see in the mirror, even in a
bathing suit (and it’s not perfect I can attest to that) but I can still feel
happy and confident then that’s exactly where I want to be. </span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I pretty much journal or diary my life daily on Instagram so
I suppose in a lot of ways that has taken the place of my need to document my
life here, although there are issues or stuff I could not go into on Instagram that’s
true.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And there is a part of me that
misses the ability to be batshit crazy and neurotic and this was the safe place
I felt like I could do it at.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span><span style="font-family: "calibri";">My life these days pretty much in a nutshell. I run. I lift.
I eat. I snuggle my doggies. I go to work. I go to sleep. I do pretty much the
same thing the next day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There’s not a
ton of other in my life right now and I guess that’s okay. I have nothing major
planned or in the works.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am just
trying this whole existing thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
happens. It needs to happen. To just exist a little bit for a little while. And
that’s about it for me. For now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
hey, it’s an update. After 5 months, it’s an update :)</span></span></div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-66859092451523516662015-11-09T15:34:00.000-08:002015-11-09T15:34:29.237-08:00I'm still breathing<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I know I’ve been MIA for a little while. Truthfully I’ve
felt like I kind of lost my mind temporarily for a bit there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s a series of factors all lining up all at
once to create the most “off” mood.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s
like the normal let-down of post accomplishing epic goals coupled with pure
exhaustion and burnout and then on top of it the weather changing into cold and
depressing territory.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was inevitable
that my high would come crashing down. I didn’t expect it to be quite so
epic.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Honestly it’s a chemical imbalance
in my brain that truly exists as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
tend to run away and hide from the world in such times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Truthfully I have shut down from most parts
of my life. I can’t exactly tell you why but I haven’t talked to or seen my
family in weeks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s bizarre for me. Of
course I am still talking to and seeing Chris because well obviously he is my
husband and we live in the same house so that is unavoidable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not that I would want to avoid him anyway. </div>
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I’ve been trying to work out my own inner demons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They still exist and sometimes get the better
of me. I have honestly been so majorly depressed for no good reason and I
thought it better to avoid real life as a result.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have been doing a better job the last week
of sticking to some medications and trying to pep myself up and I guess that’s
working okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Depression is a VERY real
and very serious thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s not forget
that I come from the same genetic gene pool as a man who killed himself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not trying to sound all poor me, but I’m
just stating the truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I suffer from my
own moments of mental issues that are completely derivative of both genetics
and environment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Which leads me back to running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why running is so important in my life because
it helps deal with the mental fog that I sometimes get in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>BUT alas, as the weather turns it gets harder
to run outside and feel that freedom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s
sort of a catch 22 you see because I am tired and exhausted from running and
want a break but the longer I take a break the more mentally depressed and
unsure of myself I become.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I start to
get panic attacks that I am going to lose all my ability to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And mentally I start to beat myself up as
self-doubt enters the brain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s all so
stupid I know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This Friday I leave for
Vegas.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel like I should be more
excited than I am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It will be fun and I
will have a great time I am sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I
also have a panic moment of what if I can’t run 13.1 miles?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve been utterly slacking in my running as
of late.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The last time I ran any major
distance was on October 25 when I ran my last marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s 3 full weeks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sure I ran some distances in between.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like 3 or 4 milers during the week, but
nothing more than like 4 miles. And it was hard. But the treadmill is always
harder than outside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I’m getting into panic mode that what occurred last year is
going to repeat itself. History always repeats itself right? After Vegas last
year I didn’t run. Like not much at all. And consequently running got VERY
hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Terrifyingly hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t want that to happen again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Today I went ahead and signed up for 2 half
marathons after Vegas. One on November 29 and one on December 13.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Most likely these will be awful weather kind
of runs. But it is what it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not
sure if this was a really smart or really stupid idea. Probably a little of
both.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Part of me wants to leave Vegas
and not run again for months but the other part of me knows that ultimately it
would cause me more stress. Even if I grit out shitty times, at least I will be
putting the miles in and mostly at this point that is all that matters.</div>
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Trutfully I’m more freaked out because I can’t stop eating
and I know I’ve gained like 10 pounds post Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am pretty much not joking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I not only eat whatever I want, but I eat
excessively shitty things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like since
returning from Maui I have consumed all by myself not a like, 5 or 6 entire
tubs of frosting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, I eat Rainbow
Chip frosting by the spoonful right out of the tube.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s my favorite frosting ever and they recently
brought it back. I am pretty sure that you aren’t supposed to just sit and eat
frosting like it’s a candy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not to
mention the constant Mcdonalds and other treats I somehow find myself
justifying.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Bags of Oreos? Yup.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s cool. I can eat whatever I want,
right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>WRONG.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know its all wrong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And all of it is just succeeding in making me
feel worse.</div>
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This last weekend I did not exercise once. I took off Friday
night and then all weekend. I didn’t leave the house but once on Saturday to go
to the store to buy crappy ass food to eat. I ate and ate and watched TV and
movies for almost 48 hours straight. And slept.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was the most self-indulgent, inactive weekend I think I’ve had all
year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not a lie.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while resting felt good, it also felt
horrible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t shake the you are a
failure self-talk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And the fear.
Truthfully it’s the fear that because I have only successfully loaded my body
with junk that I am going to be slow as fuck running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I won’t be able to endure 13 miles and
it will be slow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And honestly going to
Vegas this weekend doesn’t produce high hopes for eating better. It’s
Vegas.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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But maybe AFTER Vegas, right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>God I hope. REALLY hope that I can pull my
shit together. Its called zero motivation at all. I give zero fucks about
anything and it REALLY is showing in my behaviors. And if I’m not carefully it’s
really going to start showing on my body very soon. I feel like I can already
tell. But that is more so probably my brain beating me up than anything major
physically.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I realistically know if
I don’t stop my behaviors it will be real all too soon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Get thru this week, get thru Vegas and then
fresh start? Please please pretty please. </div>
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I hate feeling this way. I hate depression and what it does
to your mind. I hate that I have to deal with it at all. I hate that I can’t
just ride the happy wave of feelings for well forever honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But life doesn’t work that way. Never
has.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We all have ups and downs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I happen to be in the down right now. I will
pick myself up and dust myself off and find a way out of this. I know I will.</div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-12746982228486754492015-10-28T14:28:00.001-07:002015-10-28T14:28:53.221-07:00Bad attitude<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I have been taking it easy and I do feel better. Unfortunately
when you take it easy, it’s hard to find the motivation to return to working
out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s ridiculous how quickly you get
out of the habit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I also think it’s
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depressing as hell and I just want to go home and eat and rest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I have decided that my body is truly just tired.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am trying to forgive it for kind of falling
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and now I understand its tired. I honestly think it’s going to take a couple
weeks for me to return to any amount of normal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I have been “going” for so long that it just wants to stop.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And hibernate and eat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t stop eating for the life of me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything and anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And my willpower is non-existent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My desire or motivation is totally lacking.
See, we all go thru ups and downs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
know this is normal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know that my
generalized exhaustion is not helping.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
don’t feel that well as a whole and therefore it’s hard to exhibit signs of
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I think I should just function in survival mode for the next
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soon. Like in 2 weeks almost. Shit. How the hell did that happen? I honestly
don’t even want to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m that tired
and exhausted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I pushed myself too hard
honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I can’t back out now
because Amanda and her boyfriend Rick are going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it will be fun.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just wish I felt a little better as a
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On another note, my mom and two sisters joined weight
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I feel like I need about a week off to just sleep my life
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that way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will survive I am sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus let’s not forget that typically I always
experience an afternoon slump so that’s part of it I am sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just need more sleep as a whole.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And probably an attitude adjustment to boot. </div>
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I wish I had happier things to say today or anything really
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right now, and I can’t hide forever. I also want to be accountable to
myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is the downward spiral part
where things fall apart or I figure my shit out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m going to be okay. It’s all going to be
okay. Somehow what is meant to be will find its way.</div>
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I am exhausted. I am both physically and mentally
spent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I suspect this might be right on schedule
for this time of year. After enduring a very run heavy summer culminating in
pushing thru October I am just drained. I do believe this happened to me last
year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is arriving right on
schedule.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This weekend a year ago I ran
a Halloween half marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then for the
next couple weeks I barely ran and then went to Las Vegas in November and ran
my final half of the year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After that, I
was just pooped and basically quit running all together for months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This resulted in the idea that I didn’t think
I wanted to run anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it also
resulted in January not being able to run 3 miles without major effort.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t want that to happen again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t allow that to happen again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But right now I’m TIRED.</div>
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Last week I knew I was slipping. I knew things were falling
apart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Physically I felt horrible. By
Wednesday I was sick.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt exhausted
and drained and got hot and cold chills. I went home sick.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the 7 years I’ve worked at my current job
I have only called in sick 1 time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Wednesday I went home sick so you must know that it was real.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For the life of me I could not make myself do
anything basically Tuesday thru Friday. I had mentally just checked the fuck
out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know that sounds harsh but it’s
true. My physical tired/sore made my mental state horrific.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was all over the place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had signed up for one last full marathon yesterday.
It was in Tri-Citites Washington.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is about
a 4-5 hour drive from our house. I honestly debated not even going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Chris didn’t really want to go honestly. But
we decided that we should just power thru and do it.</div>
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I worked out last Monday night and went to the gym Tuesday
but didn’t do much of anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did
not work out Wednesday thru yesterday. I have never taken that long of a break.
I was uncertain how that would affect my full marathon yesterday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh let’s not forget that I have been eating
like shit too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This goes hand in hand
with exhaustion and fatigue.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Tired,
beyond tired. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it was going to be
rough. I knew running a full marathon with little training was a stupid
idea.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It pretty much was.</div>
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I have always said pretty instantly in a run I can tell how it’s
going to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just have a feeling.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew less than 2 miles into the run that it
was going to be hard. That is was going to require everything I had just to
finish.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At mile 2 I had to use the
bathroom. I knew this was a 26 mile run so if I already had to use the bathroom
that I needed to just stop and take care of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ran off course to a bathroom in a park. It was locked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was pissed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Not only did I run off course and screw my time and my distance but I
didn’t get to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was getting worse.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Finally at mile 4.5 exactly another bathroom
presented itself, this time it was open. I went for it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This added minutes to my time as I dead
stopped to take care of business.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At
this moment I didn’t even care about going fast. I knew it would be all about
just surviving and the time was not going to be great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My legs didn’t have that extra spring in
them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I did my business and got back
on course.</div>
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In case anyone is wondering, 26.2 miles is a LONG way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At around mile 8 I kind of wanted to be
done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t running particularly
fast. I wasn’t trying but that’s also because I knew it was a long race and I
had to preserve my energies.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not
joking for mile after mile I kept repeating in my head, this is brutal, this is
all about finishing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just finish
today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never found any sort of
groove.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Almost every step was a struggle
but I did push on. When I finally cleared the half way mark I was in a park and
kind of ending up taking a wrong turn, adding a little more distance yet again
to my Garmin.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because 26.2 miles just
isn’t far enough let’s keep adding on distance.</div>
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This was a small race.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So there were points in time where I was pretty much alone on course and
somehow I end up taking wrong turns.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Lucky me. It wasn’t too bad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
was beautiful scenery mostly so it wasn’t a bad course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just didn’t have my heart in it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once I got to about mile 16 my body was
TIRED.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I had 10 miles to go and
then I knew that was another hour and 45 minutes of running and I wanted to
cry. I didn’t want to go another step.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This race was most difficult for me in the 16-19 mile range.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somewhere around mile 17 or 18, I honestly
don’t even remember I came across Chris who was suffering the same fate as
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Ill-prepared, lack of good sleep,
lack of training and being spent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
stopped and walked with him for a bit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My body was aching. Physically my legs and hips and feet were aching.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I had a long way to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We walked about ¾ of a mile or so and then I
decided that I needed to try and jog on. Because at mile 18, I still had 8
miles to go and as much as I might want to, I could not walk 8 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I started running again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Slowly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>About 11 minute mile pace. </div>
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Knowing I had 8 miles left was daunting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had serious moments of not wanting to go
another step. It was miserable honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That is what being ill prepared does to you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somehow though once I hit about mile 20, at
my current 11 minute mile pace things felt better. It was like once I was in
the 20’s it was less daunting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somehow
being at mile 17 or 18 is hell, but once you are in the 20’s it feels much more
bearable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was pretty much alone on
course, which was a weird experience. Just me and my headphones trying to make
it thru<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>the grueling final miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Each mile passing was a blessing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was still keeping a pretty consistent 11
minute mile pace and despite all the burning pain, I kept going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept telling myself to push on. Each step was
one step closer to the important finish line.</div>
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I also knew at this point that I was over on distance and my
time was all about just finishing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Gone
were illusions of even touching my Portland Marathon time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But honestly those illusions were gone after
2 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it was going to be a
rough brutal kind of run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Honestly even
a half would have been hard yesterday yet alone a full marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somehow I dug deep and the last couple miles
I managed thru.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I honestly think I
handled the last 6 miles better than I handled miles 14-20.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Go figure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I crossed the finish line at 4:50:44<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I also crossed the finish line with my<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Garmin reading 26.65 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Could
be better, could be worse.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Considering
how out of sync I felt pretty much the entire run. The bathroom stops. The
waking of mile 18, etc., 4:50 is acceptable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span></div>
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This was a humbling experience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>26 plus miles is a LONG way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My legs ached. Badly. They still ache
today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I learned that I can’t take
anything for granted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You should never
take running a marathon lightly. I was not prepared physically or mentally for
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was exhausted before I started. I
had been sick the week before and mentally I had checked out some time
ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thus, just finishing is a victory.
I pretty much ran everything other than that Mile 18.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will take it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I hurt pretty good towards the end and
crossing the finish line was a huge relief.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Despite everything being stacked against me, I finished.</div>
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And now today I am pooped. So beyond drained that I just
want to close my eyes and sleep. After we finished the marathon I had to drive
4 ½ hours home too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We didn’t get home
until fairly late last night and sleep is a precious commodity these days. I
need more relaxation. I realize now my body definitely needs some time to
recover.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have put it thru an epic
amount of shit and it’s time to be more kind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>In the last 5 weeks I ran 3 full marathons and the fastest half marathon
I’ve ever ran.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In exactly 5 weeks’ time
I asked my body to perform a lot. And now its exhausted as a result.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do understand. I do get it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s tired.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It needs a break. It’s not recovering well because I keep asking it to
do crazy things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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This is going to be an ease back into it week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I say ease back into it because I need to
also ease back into healthy eating.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
seriously have been horrible for 5 solid weeks pretty much. This week is
getting the food back under control and being kind to my body physically.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This weekend I only have a fun 5k
planned.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am sure I am just walking it
with my family so it’s not even as if I will run it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact my next race isn’t until November 14
in Las Vegas so I do think I am going to allow my body some time to try and
repair itself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have truly asked it to
do so much in such a short timeframe.</div>
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I am pretty sure most things I read online told me that
running a marathon is had on your body and you need all this recovery time,
etc. And somehow I thought it would be okay to run 3 marathons in 5 weeks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For the most part I did it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But yesterday I knew was rough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yesterday I knew my body was at its
limit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m overall grumpy and irritable
and lack any motivation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s time to
rest and recover and give myself a break.</div>
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A month and a half ago I hadn’t run a marathon now I have
done 3.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s kind of a lot
really.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will try and not take for
granted again how difficult 26 miles is on your body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s hard. Plus honestly for the past couple
weeks I truly have been so mentally off and I am thinking it’s a lot to do with
pure exhaustion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I do think I am NOT
going to the gym tonight. I am going to let my body rest one more day post
running my 3<sup>rd</sup> marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Instead today I am just going to try and not binge on food.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s really the plan for today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One day at a time. </div>
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There’s a saying that’s something like, you’ll never know
your limits unless you push yourself to them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I discovered my limit this weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I pushed and pushed and pushed until I hit the limit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s it. I’m calling it. No more full
marathons for a while. Next spring.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh,
I will run another one, don’t get me wrong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will probably run a few more for sure next year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But not for a while, and not without training
for them.</div>
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My legs hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just a
dull tired ache.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And mostly I just need
to sleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For like a week straight
right? Ah ha.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I honestly never claimed
to be the most rational or sane person around. 3 marathons, 1 half, 5 weeks.
Sure. </div>
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Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-78938623126462720382015-10-19T12:41:00.000-07:002015-10-19T12:41:54.961-07:00 Thirteen Point One<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I’ve generally been a little all over the place lately. I
have been finding it hard to find any amount of balance or consistency in my
life or schedule.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am definitely feeling
the effects of not having a concrete goal or plan. Meaning I generally find it
harder to say no or resist food temptations.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It’s like, eh, who cares right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I guess that’s okay on some level. On some level it’s not that good
either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m giving myself this week and
then the following week of recovery and then I need to be good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ll explain that later.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But first, let me talk about something
else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This last weekend in
particular.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because I ran my first half
marathon in a month and my first post running 2 marathons and I was kind of
curious to see what I could do with it. </div>
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Meaning, my previous PR was set on August 15 basically
before I had ran any distance past 13.1 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was 2:03:49.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was a solid
time for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Pretty much in the couple
months of marathon training I kept improving my half time every run fairly consistently.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let me put it this way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My PR for all of 2014 and withstanding until
July 11 of 2015 was 2:09:39 This may not seem like a big difference but 6
minutes in the world of running 13 miles is just shy of 30 seconds a mile. That
is actually quite a lot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is for this
reason that I wasn’t sure how much more I had in me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It has always been in the back of my mind
that someday it would be cool to run a sub 2 hour half marathon. This is kind
of like a cool runners mark. But honestly after having run so many I kind of
thought it was most likely impossible for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I’m not a “fast” runner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just
consistent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To go from a PR of 2:03:49
to sub 2 hours would require almost 20 seconds a mile faster.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Seems damned near impossible honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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In the world of running all the conditions have to line up
just perfectly to achieve PR’s.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Meaning,
you have to “feel” it. Your body just has to feel right and of course the
weather and course conditions have to be ideal. Meaning no huge hilly sections,
and the weather has to cooperate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Basically its asking a lot to line up all at once. But the weather was
almost perfect for running on Saturday. A little cold and a smidge with the
rain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just sprinkles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I also knew that would be perfect for actually
running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And the course, as I recalled
from running it the previous year was pretty good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A few rolling hills but nothing at all
major.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I simply decided to throw all
racing rules and knowledge out the window and fuck it, run as fast and hard as
I could for as long as I could.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is
not a good race strategy by any means and one that would kill you in a full
marathon. That’s all about pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I started running and I knew I was running faster than I
could reasonably keep up for any duration of time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I was pushing myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew eventually I would have to slow
down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My first mile was an 8:40.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never run that fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Second mile was 8:53. Mile 3 was 9:02.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes slowing a bit for sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But all still beyond what I normally run. I
knew that this was going to eventually bite me in the ass. I could not keep
this pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew this because my breath
felt strained already. I felt like my heart might explode. But I said, no, keep
giving it everything you have and if you peeter out in the end, oh well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s just see what we got in us.</div>
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Mile 4 I slowed. 9:12. Mile 5 was 9:16.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then for some reason I got a spurt and Mile
6 was 8:59.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really wanted to hit that
6.55 mark, the halfway point at a fast speed. I remember looking down at my
watch when it hit 6.55 and noting I was at 59 minutes and a few seconds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I could keep up this pace I could be under
2 hours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I knew that I was asking a
lot of my body. I was already exhausted and wanted to quit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I honestly didn’t think anything around 2
hours was likely at that point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew
my pace was slowing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it had to be
around a 9:10 pace to hit 2 hours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
stopped at every single water station and drank.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was only seconds I am sure but I knew
those seconds would add up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I needed
the water with running faster than I normally do.</div>
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Mile 7 was harder, 9:27 (water break) Mile 8 was 9:13, Mile
9 another water break and 9:28, Mile 10 was 9:13 again. But I knew after mile
10 that it was getting so hard and I wanted to quit so bad. I kept having an
internal conversation with myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What
does quitting mean anyway Emily?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are
going to walk now?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After a couple
seconds you will want to run again and you will just be mad at yourself for
walking so don’t do it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just keep going.
It’s all in your mind anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Be stronger
than the pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 11 was 9:22.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I was in striking distance but I was
also realistic. My body was so tired. Pure exhaustion and I gave myself
permission to just run as best as I could knowing that as my overall pace
clicked past the 9:10 mark that I was not going to hit a sub 2 hour half but
that I would be dang close.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 12 was
my worst mile both mentally and time wise, it was a 9:41.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After I saw the mile 12 marker pass I was
able to mentally tell myself it was now only 1.1 miles and holy hell to run
with all my heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 13 was 9:16. And
then I saw the finish stretch and looked at my time and the seconds were
ticking by and I looked up at how far I had to run and knew I wasn’t going to
hit it. I ran as fast as my body would allow but I was seconds off.</div>
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I crossed the finish line at 2:00:31 seconds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>31 seconds shy of my 2 hour mark. 32 seconds
shy of a sub 2 hour.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I initially was
beating myself up a little bit. It sucks to be so close to a personal record
and come up short.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But on the plus side,
I am “that” close to it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was a
great PR.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never imagined I was this
close to running that fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This means I
literally ran at steps shy of a 6.55 mile per hour pace for 2 freaking
hours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s a big deal for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That means I know I have a sub 2 hour someone
inside of me. I am this close to it. I can’t be upset about any of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Here’ the other tidbit. My Garmin tracks
moving time and elapsed time. Meaning it registers the moments where I stopped
at water stations. It knows how many seconds I did not move.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My elapsed time on my Garmin was 2:00:35
(couple seconds difference for stopping/starting) whereas my moving time was
1:59:41<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Essentially combined at all
water stations I stopped moving for 54 seconds. That sounds about right.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I could figure out a way to cut out some
water station time I would have been there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Oh well, right?</div>
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All of this means I am just that close to it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That close to something I honestly didn’t
actually believe was possible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of course
like I said all the factors totally lined up perfectly for this one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The next one they might not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The next one I might feel like crap. The next
one is most likely going to be cold and rainy given the fact that it’s now late
October in Oregon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But now I know what I
am actually capable of. I just have to keep pushing myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really did push beyond anything I ever have
before. So I just have to be proud because truthfully maybe this is going to be
my PR for a while.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Conditions could not
line up again for a while. Until next year maybe so I need to be proud that it
was pretty much a 2 hour half. </div>
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We will see where everything goes from here. I have another
plan for this weekend I want to share but for now, this is where I am at.</div>
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Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-29758421801530603552015-10-12T14:34:00.001-07:002015-10-12T14:34:23.058-07:00The return of normalcy<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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So boy was I off my game last week. I suppose some times are
like that. I can honestly say I feel 100% better today. Clearly there was a
severe imbalance in the old hormones of my brain. I knew I was off but
sometimes there isn’t much you can do about it but just wait it out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And somehow it did finally subside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank GOODNESS. Last Thursday was pretty
downright shitty for me. I went to the gym anyway and actually<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>did a decent workout.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Which always helps me feel better. But
somewhere during lunging across the gym I noticed my left IT band on my leg was
hurting. Like in a pain kind of way. This was my obvious clue to take some
rest.</div>
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I realized mostly that I need more rest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At least after the heavy amount of work I’ve
put myself thru lately. So after a great workout Thursday night, I had plans
Friday night to go to a yoga workout with Amanda. Yes, we headed to a yoga
party. Black lights, Beatles music, full on yoga session.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not a yoga girl at all. But this yoga
session was actually brutal. Somewhere during the 1 hour 15 minute session I
could feel sweat dripping off of me. I have never sweated during yoga
before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But alas, this was intense
yoga.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I stretched obviously. And both Amanda
and I agreed that we needed more yoga in our lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Forced stretching.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So we are going to try and find some place
local to do Friday night yoga on occasion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I think it’d be great for both of us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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I did not have any plans for the weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What ended up happening was 2 days of doing
crap around the house with Chris.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Stuff
we’ve honestly been putting off and avoiding for centuries it seems.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was all good, necessary stuff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while I had every single intention of
exercising or rather running during the 48 hours, it never actually happened.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And at some point I called it good enough
because well, I knew my body was thriving on the rest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My legs started to feel better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No more pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My quads felt normal again. My whole body felt like it was returning to
a level of normalcy and I decided that the rest was probably as important as
the run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Especially since I fully intend
to kill it this week at the gym and I have a fabulous half marathon this
weekend. I say fabulous because it’s one I ran last year and loved. I’m quite
looking forward to it honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So clearly
taking a couple days off was probably one of the best things I could actually
do for myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let my body repair.</div>
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<br /></div>
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Consequently today I do feel refreshed and ready to work
hard and run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am definitely ready for
a good run. I totally feel it. I feel the need to run free.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But overall I think this peaceful weekend was
exactly what the doctor ordered. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus I
feel really good about how orderly everything is in my house.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Always a plus.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Things are doing really well mostly and I’m
happy for that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am mostly just happy
to be out of the mind fog I was in last week. It was really sad honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I appreciate the happy feelings I’m having
again today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yeah! </div>
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<br /></div>
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I don’t have too much else to say honestly but felt it
important to point out that I feel crazy better than I did last week. Don’t
like to leave people hanging on such a negative note.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is why I am real. This is how I can
really appreciate the good times, because I do have struggles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a real person who occasionally loses my
shit for no good reason. </div>
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<br /></div>
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There.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All better
today!</div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-50341004691716449842015-10-08T11:59:00.001-07:002015-10-08T11:59:16.570-07:00Panic Attack<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I am presently<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>knee
deep in a bit of anxiety and depression and while I can’t exactly place the
why, I am sure it’s all tied up into the thing I’ve been working towards for 9
months is done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am sure there’s more
to it than that. BUT, I am sure that my emotions are just out of whack. Even as
I sit here, not really sure why I should be this anxious I just am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s anxiety I know it. It’s irrational fear.
Every once in a while, okay more than once in a while, I get this way. I have
never claimed to be perfect.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have never
claimed to be anything less than real and honest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes I suffer from elements of mental
issues. I am also certain that most everyone has a touch of the crazy to
them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some peoples are just more prevalent
than others.</div>
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<br /></div>
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I don’t come from a strong genetic mental health pool. Not
that I’m blaming my issues on my parents or grandparents, etc. I am sure they
are all my own baring and doing. BUT sometimes I do a better job of controlling
it than others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m a little bit
spiraling out of control if I’m being honest. I’m trying to hide it from the
people in my life which seems odd that after all this time I wouldn’t let them
in a little bit<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>more. I am a complete contradiction.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am always completely honest and truthful
here in this online world I suppose of amenity but I can be a real closed off,
keep to myself kind of person in real life. </div>
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<br /></div>
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I read a book while in Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was that book by the Olympic runner, Suzy Favor Hamilton, who became
a Las Vegas prostitute.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was all tied
to severe bi-polar disease and mistreatment and medication of the disease.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyhow. Unfortunately so much of it resonated
with me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I say unfortunately because it’s
not good when you are reading a book about someone with a severe disorder that
causes destruction and chaos in her entire world and you can completely relate.
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could relate to much of her obsession
with running and the idea of pushing herself and her obsessive nature. The high
highs/ the low lows.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The destructive
behaviors as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mine is not prostitution
of course. Thought I should make that clear, but I partake in a lot of the
severe lines of thinking that the book used to describe generally
sick/unhealthy people. The immediate gratification, no concern for the
long-term effects. The inability to see past the present moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The obsessive compulsive desires for more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One can clearly see when I get obsessed with
something I almost have to fight just as hard to keep it from turning into a
destructive thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even healthy things I
can turn into something bad. </div>
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I don’t love these things about myself but sometimes I feel
almost powerless to stop them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When you
go down the rabbit hole and you’ve dug a hole already it seems hard to figure a
way out of the hole so you might as well just keep digging it deeper and
deeper.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Its messed up clearly. I am sane
enough to know this is insane, so then I wonder how insane am I really? Or do I
use some sort of lack of control as an excuse for immediate gratification?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can tell you this, I feel like sometimes my
brain doesn’t function as properly as someone else’s.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t have an off switch. Sometimes I don’t
have the control that I am certain other people possess.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think this is in part what makes me so
driven and successful in some avenues of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But in the same token can cause me harm in
other parts of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I am just in a blah and I am sure it probably is a sort of
chemical imbalance that is rearing its ugly head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am living proof that just because you are
this or that or suddenly obtain things you always wanted or wished for it cannot
and it does NOT fix the inside. Losing weight is not some magic happy pill.
Running a marathon is not a be all fix all either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As much as I wish it were.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sure, exercise and running help tremendously
with the balancing out of the clear chemical imbalance in my brain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is probably why endorphins play a
pivitol role in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes, just
sometimes I would trade away part of my success to lead a chemically balanced
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But we are rarely given a choice
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This is the hand I was dealt in life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have no one to blame for my actions and
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might I keep waiting for the shoe to drop out from under me on my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Isn’t that sad?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That even after all this time I am still
waiting for the big fuck up to happen. For my life to come crashing down around
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Is it normal for a person to always
in the back of their mind be waiting for all the good in there life to end and
to go into a period of hell? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t
want my life to crash in around me, but I can’t help but fear it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Perhaps that’s a trust issue.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t trust that the good things in my life
are real.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Insane. As I am certain I wasn’t
ever really given any reason to doubt it.</div>
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I think this is why I try and constantly be looking for my
next fix of happiness. The next race that will take me away from the fear. The
next endorphin rush that will temporarily remove me from reality.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And yet my reality doesn’t suck.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Isn’t that a sign of a sick person?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I see I’m painting a picture that I’m insane
and I’m really not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nothing in my life
is that bad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need to just calm the
fuck down and breathe.</div>
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I’m just having a panic attack moment here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes I get those. I am sure I will feel
better this afternoon. I just need to get out of my head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>See, some days I am happy and on top of the
world and other days I have to force myself to take deep breathes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Life is not perfect for anyone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will survive. I always do.</div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-83847983429948645532015-10-07T16:34:00.002-07:002015-10-07T16:34:24.194-07:00Out of Sorts<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I’m not going to lie, I have been feeling a little out of
sorts basically since crossing the finish line on Sunday. Like tired and hungry
and completely unmotivated.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know this
is probably typical of course. I know my body is exhausted and trying to repair
itself and I should give it some credit and some time. BUT its frustrating to
not feel at your best. It’s frustrating to not feel in control. I basically ate
everything and anything on Sunday. I thought Monday <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would feel better. I didn’t. I still felt
excessively hungry. I ate too much and had little control all things
considered.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Also, I had zero motivation
to workout.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I mean, realistically I know
I should be allowed at least 1 or 2 rest days post running a marathon but its
just not me. Its not what’s in my heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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I’m bitching like a whiney girl.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I just feel blah.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just googled, “How long does it take to
recover from a marathon?” And<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not
like the answers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Most of these dumb
articles recommended weeks of rest. I’m like, you’re kidding right. And most
recommend at least 5-7 days of no running. That is NOT going to happen
either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Am I insane? Most likely
yes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cleary there are exceptions to
every rule. But why do I think I’m the exception. Seriously.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m nothing special and shouldn’t be immune
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I can tell, this 26.2 miles was much harder on my body than
the first time I ran it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am positive
it had to do with the reality that I ran the whole damned thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At a decent pace. My body is still tired.
Even as I sit here I am still tired. I want to curl up into a ball and
sleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This lack of energy makes me
depressed. I’m sad. I’m sad that I don’t have my normal pep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess this is all part of the process.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I don’t fully recover until the weekend I
guess that is what will half to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What
choice do I really have?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Again, I’m a
stupid idiot I know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just don’t like
to feel out of control really and that’s what I’m feeling right now. Like I’m
spinning out of control. Clearly I have issues. Control issues. </div>
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Indeed I just googled “how is running a marathon hard on
your body?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup, I wanted to read the
scientific documentation of what exactly is going on in your body during a 26.2
mile run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just curious.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because its just a long run to me and it
seems crazy that it should produce such hunger and fatigue days later but yet I
know it does so I’m just trying to understand it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sigh. It actually says no cross training for
2-3 days post marathon. And definitely no running. Sigh again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Dang-it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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Addendum, all this above was wrote yesterday where I in fact
got more tired as the day progressed and ended up NOT going to the gym. I took
the night off because I knew I needed it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Yes. I rested on a Tuesday because my body needed it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did feel better this morning as a
result.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I am going to go to the gym again
tonight but I will accept whatever outcome happens.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know I am still slightly in “repair”
mode.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did run 2 marathons exactly 2
weeks apart. I can forgive myself some tiredness. But this girl is never ever
done with her crazy out there goals.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This girl is slightly, actually amazingly insane.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Always have been. I just have very high
expectations of myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I might be looking
into my next adventure coming up here soon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>How do I not keep reaching for the next goal?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m literally having the time of my life
right now.</div>
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I talked to Chris last night and was saying that towards the
end of the Portland Marathon it got hard for both of us and there was an
element of pain. Physical and mental. But it was the good kind of pain. The
pleasure in pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The rewarding kind of
pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The pain that makes you feel good
and accomplished.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The kind of pain that
you actually want to do again.</div>
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Anyhow hopefully I get the pep back in my mental game today,
after I get the blood pumping and the sweat flowing. I am sure I will be back
to my annoying over the top ridiculous self in no time.</div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-8862075206758484922015-10-05T14:53:00.001-07:002015-10-05T14:53:45.684-07:00Marathoner X2<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I feel like there might just be certain people in this world
born crazy. Or at least with that certain extra little something inside them
that drives them beyond what a normal person would think rational. I have
always know that I was a certain kind of passionate crazy. I have always known
that while I am just what I am and I can’t apologize for it, that truthfully
few people will ever understand my drive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Hell, even I don’t get it sometimes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But fortunately for me I have found an equally insane person in Chris
who gets it and goes with me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That was
probably part of the attraction from the start. We both recognized the same
insanity in each other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>While it can
make for turmoil at times, it also helps us understand and go with things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would probably would not come up with quite
so many hair brained plans if I didn’t have a partner in crime. It wouldn’t be
as much fun. </div>
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So this is where we are at today. I am sore. I ran a
marathon yesterday and it was vastly, crazy different than the first one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Almost night and day difference.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had expectations going in of what I
“should” be able to do if conditions were right. That meant pace/timing
etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I also had fears that having run a marathon
exactly 2 weeks prior that this would end up messing with my timing and pace.
That somehow I wouldn’t be fully prepared to run it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Perhaps I will always forever have
trepidation about running 26.2 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
is a very long way after all. </div>
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We met the people at the expo on Saturday and they were
lovely people. So thankfully that all went down very nicely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was nervous Saturday night. Not actually
about running 26.2 miles, but suddenly slightly nervous because what if I
couldn’t run it at a 4 hour 30 minute pace as I had claimed I could.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What if part of that 5 hour finish time was
simply because that is how long it was going to take me to run a marathon?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe I was delusional you see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t worry too much about it. In fact
considering that I was running a full marathon the next morning<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you’d think I might actually be more nervous
than I actually was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t put as
much thought into my prep for it and I was kind of like, ah, let’s just do
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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So we arrived fairly early Sunday morning which was
good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We lined up. Lots of people.
Thousands really. The half and the full started together and ran part of the
same course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As soon as our corral
finally made its way to the start and the buzzer sounded I immediately felt
great, but also immediately felt like I couldn’t move.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So many people, I was not running nearly as
fast as I wanted. Frustrating but also maybe fine because it was a slight
forced pacer in the beginning to allow my body to warm up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So the first 2 miles were SLOW because of all
the people. Then we hit a hill and I forced myself up it pretty well. Then mile
3 was pretty much all downhill and my legs took off. This is also about the
time the heard started to separate and I could move freely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 3 was amazing fast and I felt the
momentum after that. I ran GREAT!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was
running a 9:30 minute mile pace for lots of miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got this I thought.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But secretly I knew this was too fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I didn’t care.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The air felt amazing. It was beyond perfect
marathon running weather.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The air was so
crisp and clean.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank you Oregon for
being beautiful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had forgotten how
much I truly love and appreciate being an Oregonian.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Beautiful fresh air!</div>
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The first 10-12 miles were blissful. I loved every second of
them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was flying. And I thought boy if
I was running a half marathon this thing would feel fabulous and I’d almost be
done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was also expecting more hills
than there proved to be in the first half of the marathon. This is fabulous I
thought. My body is a beast and it’s holding up great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of course it’s easy to think and feel this 10
miles into a 26 mile run.</div>
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So somewhere around the 13 mile mark, about halfway, I
started to notice slight issues with things. Like for some reason it felt like
my pants were chaffing around my waist. Weird. This has NEVER happened, not a
single time in all the runs I’ve ever done. And I’ve run half marathons in
these pants before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s interesting.
And at about mile 13 I noticed and realized that a big blister was forming on
my baby pinky toe on my left foot. Nothing one can do about that at mile 13 of
a full marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it was forming
and that by the end it was going to be a full sized gigantic blister. I ran
on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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My overall pace was solidly at 9:40 minute miles all the way
until mile 16 when we came upon a fairly significant hill.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was still feeling okay at this point and
running solid. I “ran” up the hill as much as one can actually run up hills. At
the top of the hill I was greeted to a fabulous view from a gorgeous bridge. Of
course at this point my overall pace had begun to slip just a little. Hills.
But I was still under a 10 minute mile pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ran on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 17, Mile 18. I
started to think, hmm… this hurts more than last time. Stupid chafing. Stupid
toe. Stupid quads on fire. I ran on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Mile 19. Mile 20.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is
AWESOME. Yes, more painful for sure, but awesome. This is EXACTLY what I
thought running a marathon would feel like. Hard, intense, satisfying. Did I
mention hard? Why does this hurt so much?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Mile 20 something, I am still under a 10 minute mile pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But why aren’t I done already. You seriously
want me to run another 6.2 miles, that’s like over an hour. Oh GOD, I have to
run another hour. What the HELL….<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile
21. This blows. But I’m still at less than 10 minute mile pace. No way I am
going to keep this long term.</div>
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Math. Lots of math in my head on an exhausted body. Kept
running numbers over and over. Again and again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Can I still get a sub 4:30 marathon time if I slow down a bunch because
I knew the slowdown was coming.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 22.
Pace was 9:58 minute miles but I was no longer a 10 minute mile pace. It was more
like 11 minute miles. I knew eventually it would tick over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 22.5 I held on to exactly 10:00 minute
mile pace. A little after mile 22.5 it turned over to a 10:01 pace. Sigh.
Everything was hurting at this point. It was more like foot shuffling. I seriously
felt like I was just barely moving my feet. But I was still around 11 minute
miles so I was in fact running. But it sucked. </div>
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Mile 23. Okay only 3 miles to go. Just a 5k. More math. If I
run 11 minute miles I will finish at x time. Blah, blah blah. Everything is on
fire.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why is this hurting so much more
than the last time? Maybe because I’m really running. I’m running a decent pace
for a long period of time. This hurts. This sucks. Oh, there’s the mile 24 sign.
How did it take me like forever to get to this sign? Oh God. Somewhere post
mile 24 I hit a wall. I literally thought I was going to throw up right there.
I had to slow down. I wanted to vomit so badly. My stomach was turning. The
pain in my quads was practically unbearable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The adorning supporters all along the side of the road now seemed like a
sad reminder of the fact that I could barely move instead of motivating me it
felt like I was a disappointment. Oh body, just run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to will myself to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 24-25 was brutal. I swear it felt like
an eternity. I was miserable and felt sick. And pain. I tried to run. I swear
time stood still, and yet it was an 11:47 minute mile. Still not horrible. For
this point in the race. I had a moment at Mile 24 where I was like, this feels
so horrible, why the hell did I want to do this? Maybe I will be good if I
never ever run another marathon again. Maybe after I finish this, I’m good.
Maybe I don’t need to do this anymore. I already proved I could.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe I’m just done. </div>
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Mile 25. Okay, only 1.2 to go. And yet I almost wanted to
cry. This was the wall. This was the pain. I saw the 4:25 pace group go by me
and I had nothing left in my legs to try and keep with them. There goes
4:25.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to run on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 25 was awful. This was the home stretch and
there were literally hundreds of people lining the streets. And I had to walk
for a second and then shuffle by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile
26 was my slowest mile, 12:01. But I still think that was primarily ran. I came
into the finish chute and I tried to tell myself no matter how much pain you
are in, just run! Just finish. Even if it’s the slowest run of your life, just
run. It was slow. But I crossed the line and got my medal and saw my time. 4:28
something on my watch which would later be officially confirmed as 4:28:33 and
I was happy. And I stood for a moment in the finishers chute relieved. And
proud. </div>
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This was in fact what I was expecting from a marathon. This
was the feeling I was thinking I would have all along. The feeling of
satisfaction. Of knowing that I “ran” a marathon. I pretty much ran all of it.
I walked a few moments in the last 2 miles. But I’d say probably honestly
combined like a quarter of a mile tops.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So I ran pretty much 26 miles straight. That is what I’m calling a
success. That is running a marathon. I don’t think you can finish a marathon in
4:28 and not pretty much run the whole thing. I had a moment standing post
finish line looking over at all the hoopla going on around me and I almost got
teary. I just did it. Sub 4:30 marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ran a marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But almost
instantly I was taken back to the reality at hand, the burning of my quads and
calves. The hunger that was psychotically prevalent. I wanted to eat
everything. EVERYTHING. Oddly absent was the feeling of wanting to vomit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, I got sick at mile 24 but that went away
the moment I stopped running. And oddly I never felt the urge again. Post Maui
I threw up for an hour straight almost. Guessing it was heat related mostly.
Because instead of feeling sick, I felt like I hadn’t eaten in days. </div>
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I made my way thru the finishers corral where I found a
place to sit down and call Chris. He had finished the marathon in 4:17:51 so
about 10 minutes ahead of me. Ironically he finished Maui about 10 minutes
ahead of me as well so apparently this is spread. Right around 10 minutes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We drove home and stopped at the grocery
store where all I wanted to do was EAT. Everything. And that is exactly what I
did. No joke pretty sure I ate like 10,000 calories post run but I didn’t care.
I just kept wanting to eat and eat. And sleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Eat. Sleep. Eat. Sleep.</div>
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Actually running 26.2 miles is vastly different than a half
marathon. Aside from being double the distance it is really like triple the
amount of work and wear and tear. It’s like the marathon is broken into 3
parts. Mile 1-13.1 (the half) Mile 13.1- Mile 20 (manageable) Mile 20-26.2 (the
real struggle and race)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All 3 parts are
equally hard. Seriously. As hard as the first 13.1 miles is, no doubt the final
6.2 is just as brutal. You could almost say it is 1-13.1, 13.1-21, and
21-26.2.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Honestly the last 5 miles are
as difficult and painful as the first 2 parts are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s the last 5 that challenge your mental
fortitude and desire. It’s the last 5 miles that make you a marathoner. It’s
how you handle the pressure when there is an ache in your legs and a sincere
desire to quit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s the last 5 that
determine who you really are. For the most part I passed. I still have some
growing to do but I passed. 4:28:22. I passed.</div>
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In the end my overall results were as such:</div>
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Overall: 2498 out of 5550 (top 45% of ALL participants)</div>
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Female: 966 out of 2841 (Top 34% of ALL females)</div>
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Women 35-39: 171 out of 453 (Top 37% of ALL comparable aged
women)</div>
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I am very pleased with these results. Honestly to be in the
top half of all categories is amazing and top 34% or almost 1/3 of all females,
well that’s kickass! Considering I don’t really consider myself a runner
working on speed. </div>
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So I had that moment of this shit is HARD. REALLY hard.
Running 26.2 miles is not easy. It’s painful and it hurts and maybe I don’t
need to ever do it again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But that
feeling quickly passed. Actually even as soon as I had the thought while
running I thought, no. Of course you are doing this again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s where my crazy comes into play. </div>
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There is absolutely no feeling quite like crossing the
finish line of a marathon. For a few brief moments everything else fades away
and I feel like I accomplished something so remarkable. And the feeling of satisfaction
and pride. It’s priceless.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes these
marathons come with a price tag but the reward is priceless. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a freaking marathoner. It hurts. It’s
painful. It’s torturous and it’s glorious. It’s amazing. It’s magical. It’s
worth all the suffering. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I knew I had a sub 4:30 in me and I’m glad I had the
opportunity to confirm that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yeah me!
Now time to figure out what’s next. </div>
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Hello innocent, naïve, sad and depressed Emily…. </div>
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(I.E. a letter to Emily on October 5, 2012)</div>
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It’s us, Emily, coming to you again from the future.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know, another letter right. Didn’t you get
one of these like 2 years ago? Yup. You got a letter from the future on October
5, 2013.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But guess what, we are now 3
years into the future and I felt it was appropriate to follow up with you
today. The woman we are today needs to write this letter to remind herself of
the women you are in fact on October 5, 2012.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Does that make sense? Time travel is complicated right?</div>
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Oh sad Emily, if only you could have a crystal ball to see
the future that awaits you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Those sad
tears you’ve been sheading an awful lot of would all be happy and shed because
of profound disbelief.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That crystal ball
would look like a sheer liar to you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
oh how much you’d love to see the images because I know you. I know 2012 Emily
and the things we are doing today would blow your mind and you probably would
think that magic ball was showing you your hearts desires not reality. </div>
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You in fact still to this day remain my hero 2012 Emily and
let me tell you why. It’s easy to keep going and growing when you feel
fabulous. It’s easy to dream for the stars and work towards it when you already
feel capable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s a much different
story when you feel defeated and weak and are emotionally as well as physically
broke.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are broken. I remember very
clearly how broken you are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And somehow
despite it all, you mustered up the last little bit of strength you possessed to
make this very life altering change today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Yes, today, October 5, 2012 you put into motion the most monumental
shift of your life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will forever be
thankful for the bravery and courage you have shown today. I am proud of
you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are the biggest reason I am
here, 3 years later, able to write this letter.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You are the inspiration.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are
the woman who didn’t give up on herself. Everything I do today feels easy in
comparison to what you endured.</div>
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Just days ago you sat in that Old Navy parking lot and cried
your eyes out. I have never forgotten that pivotal moment in time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And today you simply had enough,
finally.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Today is the day you just
decided to love yourself enough. In some ways it was the hardest thing you’ve
ever done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In some ways, it was also
easy and a relief.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because for whatever
reason it was all right this time. Finally. Magically. Everything was just
right. But I know as you start this day October 5, 2012… that you have no way
of knowing that this really is it for us. I know you feel like it’s different but
that all of your past failed attempts at this are playing over and over in your
mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That the reflection you see in the
mirror, when you actually force yourself to look at it makes you so sad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sad mostly because of how many times you’ve
gone up and down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You’ve had brief
moments or glimpses of a different healthier life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A happier existence.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But none of it will even come close to the
life you are living right now.</div>
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The letter you got 2 years ago from the future told you that
you’d be happier than you ever knew possible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That woman 2 years ago that wrote you that letter still had no
clue.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Isn’t that funny?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She was far and away happier than you could
ever imagine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That woman talked about
the journey that she really was just beginning into the real fitness
world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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You know what else, that woman from 2013 is also an
inspiration to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That woman from 2013,
after having lost all the weight in 8 months stood at that crossroads where we’ve
travelled down a million times and made a different choice. For the first time
in her life, 2013 Emily finally got out of her own way and loved herself enough
to not quit when she got to goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2013
Emily joined a gym and despite serious amounts of pent up anxiety ran a half
marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The woman who wrote you on
October 5, 2013 had just run her first half marathon. She was beyond proud of
that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh Emily, do you even want to know
where it has gone from there?</div>
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I hate to give you information overload today, on this
magical October 5 2012 date.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because you
are already terrified enough as it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
am sure hearing the idea that you ran a single half marathon is overwhelming
enough but I might just blow your mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
exactly 3 years from this very day Emily, you will have ran countless 5 and
10ks, and 44 half marathons. Yes, that was not a typo or a doubling up of the
number 4.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>44 half marathons and 2 full marathon(s)
in 2 weeks time nonetheless. A marathon in Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did I mention that part?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Actually reading this letter on October 5,
2012, I can tell you you’ve gone to Maui twice honestly in the next 3 years. In
addition to Maui twice you’ve gone to Vegas 3 time, you will travel to Arizona
and San Francisco, San Jose, San Diego, Seattle, and even Puerto Vallarta
Mexico.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What the hell you might be
asking yourself just about now. This is clearly all lies, right? </div>
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But you do know how desperately you’ve always wanted to live
life. How much you’ve spent your entire existence hiding from the world. At
times because you were ashamed, and even when you weren’t ashamed because you
just didn’t really love yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All
those other times you lost weight, you didn’t really figure anything out. You
went thru the motions but you never touched the inside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The real core of the problem.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This time is so unbelievably different.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well, hell, this letter being 3 years out is
proof enough of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We’ve never done 3
years right?</div>
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In 2013 you called yourself an athlete.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You were certainly on that path.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You had unleased the warrior beast inside of
you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You knew that you were never going
back at that point. But you really were just touching the surface of what you
were capable of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And as certain as I am that your mind is being
blown right now and how proud<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>we are of
2015 Emily I am also equally certain that 2016 or 2017 Emily will laugh at this
version of us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This I believe whole
heartedly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are nowhere near done with
where we are destined to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But from
this date in the future, we are pretty damned with our accomplishments.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But all of the runs we’ve done or physical
accomplishments we’ve achieved pale in comparison to the real true gift we’ve received.
The feeling of self-love.</div>
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Can we talk about how broken you feel right now today and
how much you have no idea what self-love really is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In comparison I want to tell you that there
is nothing in life as rewarding as loving yourself, really honestly truly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while it took losing weight to get to
this place, that it ultimately had very little to do with the weight loss.
Funny, right? </div>
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Your greatest accomplishment 3 years later is not losing the
weight or running a marathon (although that is pretty cool!) but it’s simply
learning to be in love with yourself. I am most proud of that. I never knew I
could love myself this much.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe that
sounds selfish but it’s not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s not
because being this in love with yourself and your life means you are the best
possible version of yourself to share with the world. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think you believed you were in love with
yourself when you were thin before but we both knew something was always
off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That despite knowing you “should”
be happy you could never quite the inner critic in your head or the voices that
nagged at you reminding you that you weren’t good enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In hindsight this is probably one of the
biggest reasons we always failed at this game before. We never felt the way we
thought we should feel when we lost weight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It didn’t make us love ourselves any more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s sad right?</div>
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But guess what Emily, I am here today, to tell you that
self-love is finally ours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Selfishly, I
wake up every single day in love with myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Loving yourself doesn’t mean we don’t have flaws or are perfect in any
way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately we still make tons of
mistakes and regret a ton of our decisions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But that isn’t what self-love means.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It means that I understand my flaws and limitations and love myself
anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That yes, our body shows many
visible signs of the long journey we’ve put it thru.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t want to freak you out or burst your
little bubble but we are never going to have a model body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have areas and issues that will never go
away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And you know that. You’ve lose
weight before and those nagging issues are part of what previously prevented us
from loving yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Emily, we’ve
finally for whatever reason found a way to come to peace with our body just as
it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Isn’t that crazy?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can honestly tell you that 3 years later,
you love your body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You love yourself,
but more specifically you love the image you see in the mirror, flaws and all.
Saggy skin and all. It just doesn’t bother you the way it once did.</div>
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I believe that somewhere along the line, while you were
finding yourself in the arena of running and being an athlete and chasing your
dreams that you developed an overwhelming feeling of accomplishment and greater
purpose that the physical aspects no longer mattered at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What was once upon a time in your life all
about the pursuit of weight loss morphed into the pursuit of living life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And when your goal is to not limit yourself
and live an epic existence, the material seems so unimportant.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Don’t get me wrong we didn’t undergo a
personality transplant Emily. We still care about how we look and enjoy fashion
and looking pretty. And yes, there is still a touch of the vain to us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are who we are after all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But all of those things are secondary to what
really matters in life. Living it fully. </div>
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I know on this day as you weight 220, 225, or something <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>above (we don’t know because we don’t like to
weigh ourselves) that all of the stuff I’m saying to you is amazing but simply
unbelievable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I also know that as
shocking as it all sounds there is a small little part of you that knows this
can all be true. That knows that you’ve carried around the idea of a marathon
in your heart most of your adult life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That even though you are starting this journey today, that you are fully
aware that you were always meant to live a different existence.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That somehow you just got unbelievably off
course on the path you were supposed to walk down- scratch that- run down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I don’t know, I’m guessing at this point
that it’s been exactly the right path all along.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That every single one of those failed
attempts at weight loss and all the heartache and tears shed have been
necessary to become this woman we are today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Without the struggle we couldn’t fully appreciate who we are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The struggle is part of our story.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is part of what makes us great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The struggle is what finally will prove to
prevent us from ever returning to our former life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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As time ticks by, and you fade farther and farther into the
past, I want to honor you in any way I can. I want to remember your place in my
life. And I want to constantly thank you for your insane bravery on this day
that has forever changed us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>October 5,
2012 is the day. Single handedly one of the most significant days in our
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It ranks right up there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This day will forever hence forth hold a very
special place in our heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s the day
everything changed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the best possible
way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Thank you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The 2
simplest words imaginable and yet they couldn’t possibly ever be enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank you Emily.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank you for never giving up on your
dreams.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank you for choosing one more
time, to do this, even though you thought the odds might be against you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank you for that one final act of
bravery.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2012 Emily, it all ONLY gets
better from here on out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s not always
perfect. There are still many rough patches to go. Ups and downs, but that’s
just life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But you now possess all the
tools you need to know that you can and will get thru anything this world
throws at you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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You 2012 Emily are the bravest soul I’ve ever known.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Chin up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Your world is about to be rocked.</div>
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-2015 Emily</div>
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(Badass athlete, fit chick, marathoner, runner, and
completely in love with life!)</div>
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Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-35834278372293660422015-10-03T12:00:00.000-07:002015-10-03T12:00:02.763-07:00The Mysterious Announcement<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Drumroll please… And
the mysterious announcement that no one was really waiting with baited breathe
for… tomorrow Sunday October 4 (as close as I am going to get to my 3 year
weight loss anniversary that is October 5) … in honor of this epic 3 year
journey I have been on, I will in fact be lining up at the starting corrals to
run the 2015 Portland Marathon.</div>
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The reason for all the secrecy and skirting around it is
fairly simple. What I did was not exactly encouraged, in fact, its slightly forbidden
but I’m going to go with it anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let
me explain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I always knew the Portland
Marathon was occurring on October 5 and even before we went to Maui I toyed
with the idea of signing up for it. But I really didn’t want to sign up for
another marathon exactly 2 weeks after running my first without having actually
run one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t know how I would ultimately
fair or feel about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t know if
it was going to be so awful that I wouldn’t<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>want to run another one for a long time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We all know how it turned out now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And more than anything the moment I crossed the finish line. Actually,
somewhere after about 3 hours of running on the course my mind started drifting
to the Portland Marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because it was
too damned hot out there and I REALLY wanted another crack at this marathon in
cooler weather.</div>
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As soon as I crossed the line I was relieved yes, and then
sick of course, but mentally I was thinking about doing it again. Soon. To run
the whole damned thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just want the
opportunity to see what I can really do when heat and humidity aren’t so
ridiculous that I can no longer function.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So back to Portland Marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
knew fairly instantly after finishing that my body felt great. My legs were
fine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not wake up sore the next
day. I felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>By Wednesday I was
already out on an epic crazy jungle hike adventure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My body can handle 26.2 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s Portland Marathon!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Except…. Well… except, registration was closed
of course.</div>
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Registration was also expensive. It’s like $160 to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s steep honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But whatever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I would have paid it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Too late to
register of course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They have a strict
no transfer policy. Oh you can buy your way in thru a charity, that costs $300
each.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yeah, Chris & I are NOT paying
$600 to run the marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So enter
slightly bad option.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What happens if you
sign up for a marathon months before and you become injured or can’t complete
said distance. Its non-refundable, non-transferable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are out the money, right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>People sell their bibs on craigslist.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Again, totally maybe not ethical but it
happens.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did a quick craigslist search
and bingo, there it was, the listing I was after.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2 race bibs for sale, one male, one
female.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>$150 for BOTH.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Done. </div>
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The secrecy comes into play that I had to make sure that it
was all going to go down and I’d actually have the bibs in my hand to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The said couple has to go to the expo and
pick up their own bibs, using their ID.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Am I going to hell for this?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No,
probably not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just want to run the
damned marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t care that
technically there will be no official proof of it. I will know I did it. I will
have the finishers medal. Which is fabulous by the way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will get all the swag and gear so who
really cares?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just want another crack
at 26.2 before the season shifts and there aren’t any more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Honestly this is my last real shot in the
area, as there isn’t many other options. Believe me, I searched for them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Doesn’t matter.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Tomorrow, October 4, I will in fact run 26.2 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am going to leave out the bib acquiring story
from all of social media. Best to not play up that part.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s our secret, okay?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just wanted to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just wanted the bib.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And here were two perfectly lovely bibs with
people who paid their money who aren’t going to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Makes sense to me. I just want to run my 26.2
miles while my body is still trained for it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I don’t need to retrain right now. I am ready.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I am slightly desperate to get another
crack at it really.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So there you have
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2015 Portland Marathon is on the
agenda.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In exactly 2 weeks’ time I will
have run 2 freaking marathons. Because yes, I am that<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>crazy. Because yes, once my mind is set, I am
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Its honestly like once I realize I am capable and can do
something, I am full speed ahead.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just
want to run 26.2, just really RUN pretty much every step.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will be satisfied with whatever the outcome
or time is, so long as I ran most all of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Like 98% Is my goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus what an
epic way to celebrate my 3 year anniversary.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Crossing the finish line of the Portland marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just keep upping the ante don’t I?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Wish me luck. Turns out 2015 is the year of the marathon x
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Oh, and because, hello, look at this gorgeous medal.</div>
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Hello blog world. Anyone still out there?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A few people based on some numbers I see. It’s
Friday and I feel really good… still… I guess it really is that post marathon
high in full effect.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Guess what, I’ve
totally converted Amanda into a runner. Hmm… she is training for the Vegas half
next month and I keep getting cute little text messages from her about running
and feeling good and loving carbs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
thing is, bodybuilding and doing those shows has totally fucked up her body.
The high protein, low to no carb diet really screwed her up. Because, hello,
our bodies need carbs for very real reasons. I will never do a low carb diet because
not only does it make me angry it also messes with your body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I truly believe everything needs to occur in
some amounts of moderation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I try and
not like binge on the carbs unless it’s the day before a big run of course.
Keeping it high protein/moderate carbs and low fat during the week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But honestly it’s a good balance and I
typically feel pretty good. Amanda has started to feel very shitty lately as a
result of the diet. She went to a doctor who informed her that her diet was in
fact causing too much strain on her body and she needed to eat carbs. No more
high protein it was messing with her heart in a scary way. Seriously.</div>
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So there you have it. Eat your carbs my friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With that said, I have no problem carb
binging when needed. I.E. post half or full marathon as the case may be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had a great workout last night but that
makes 4 days in a row of workouts and honestly I am ready for rest day today.
And rest day tomorrow as I embark on a secret mission.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In tribute to my 3 year weight loss
anniversary that is occurring on Monday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I can’t really celebrate Monday per say so instead I choose an athletic endeavor
to tackle on Sunday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There’s a secret mission going down
Saturday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will post Saturday
afternoon. In fact I may write the post and “schedule” it now. </div>
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I spent this morning writing my 3 year letter to myself from
the future and its done. That will post on Monday, my official 3 year
anniversary date.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s nice you can
schedule a post out for the future.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
would share with you my top secret plan but I just have to make sure it all
happens first before I post it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s
what the deal is. It’s not really a secret and I want to share but I need to be
careful to make sure all the details happen first. I will know by tomorrow
morning if everything is happening as it is supposed to happen.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m excited about it though.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s tough for me to keep secrets honestly, especially
from this world, especially when it pertains to my fitness life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But alas, better safe than sorry on some occasions.
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But check back tomorrow afternoon if you are at all
interested in what I’m talking about. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of
course I will also be posting it to Instagram and most likely Facebook the
minute I am sure it’s all a go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyhow.
For right now I’m just gearing up as if this is going to happen on Sunday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If your smart I’m sure you are figuring it
all out anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because seriously, I am
a go big or go home kind of gal. I’m kind of freight train you can’t stop, that
undeniable force one I get the ball rolling in a certain direction. It’s one of
my best and perhaps worst qualities all rolled into one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Freight train Emily barreling through
anything in her path.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In other words, I’m
a total nut job.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But if you have ever
read a word I’ve written in the past this is clearly evident.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do it with passion or not as all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some people might call me a tid bit obsessive
compulsive.</div>
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Anyhow, I feel really good physically after having been
really healthy the past 4 days. It’s like with each passing my day my system
got a little better and better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
really needed the post vacation detox.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Seriously, did I mention that while I had a fantastic time in Maui, and
don’t think I went particularly insane on the food overload, that even the
amount that I did do caused havoc with my system.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like I said, I wasn’t full on crazy with
eating everything and anything. But the changes were enough to cause me throw
up, constantly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like at night, my
stomach just wasn’t used to crap grease and crap foods and crap alcohol.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Had a great time, also never puked more in a
10 day stretch in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Believe me,
none of it was on purpose. Between the heat and humidity and therefore
dehydration and running a marathon and a stray from the foods I’m used to, my
body just was acting of its own accord on the vomit front.</div>
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On a plus side, after 4 days detox and healthy nutrition I
feel great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have not weighed myself.
In fact I have not stepped on a scale since September 3. Basically when I
weighed in at 134 something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am sure I
am no longer 134 something. I am certain its up in the 140’s.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I don’t really care honestly. It was
never about a number for me. EVER.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well,
okay at many points in my life it was about a number. But not the past 2 years
anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My plan is still in full effect
which is just eat clean, be healthy, do good and then my body will follow suit.
I am 100% certain that I am this happy<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>right now because I have no idea what that number on the scale is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like suddenly if I saw 142 actually I’d feel
like a failure. Although I would be absolutely no different than I am this
second when I look in the mirror and love my body just as it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just think mentally I can trick my brain
into thinking maybe I’m really like 136 or 138. The illusion that I am still in
the 130’s is enough to keep me happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So
why fuck with that right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Truthfully
anything between 135-145 is going to be more than acceptable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is the range I want to live my life at.
Although if I never get on a scale none of that matters.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s a better way to live honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will know when or if I’m gaining weight or
losing based on my clothes that I’ve been wearing and still wear right
now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is a better indicator anyway.</div>
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My mind keeps spinning with ideas. Future plan ideas.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have not and I suspect will not settle on
anything in particular for some time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
still have time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the mean time I will
just keep going forward with the stuff that is already in the words for
myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve got a couple more half
marathons still on the books for this year and some fun family time 5k’s to
do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am giving myself the rest of 2015
to figure out the next big thing in my life. Maybe it will come to be in a
lightbulb moment, maybe it won’t.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Either
way, in the meantime, I just keep doing what I’m doing. </div>
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I’m wondering if I shouldn’t start some sort of “family” boot
camp. Ha Ha. Kind of joking, kind of not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Like I have pretty much decided that I have everything it takes to be my
own personal trainer. Really I do. And I could work out plans and actually
train my family.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could stand there and
put them thru the ringer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kind of get personal
satisfaction out of helping people I love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I’d totally do it. We shall see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I also purchased a book from amazon last night, should be here
tomorrow,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Racing Weight: How to get lean
for peak performance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So maybe that’s
where my brain is starting to shift right now. Like how do I get faster or
better at running. I always used to say simply finishing was enough for me.
That I didn’t care about time. And I really don’t.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But once you’ve tackled the distances maybe
now I’m curious how to improve my performance. Perhaps listening to the advice
of people who have been there, done that, can actually create improvements in
my running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still am not time focused
but I think it’s more about a feeling. I want to feel good and strong and
kickass longer during a run. So yes, peak performance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am going to read the book and think it
sounds interesting. </div>
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I have solidified in my mind at this point that I am a
runner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is where my heart and focus
and energies lye. Everything else is in pursuit of and to better my
running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love lifting weights and will
stand by the importance of it and the changes it has made to my body AND my
running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is vital and I will never
give that up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, it is now in pursuit
of improving my running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think running
the marathon has pushed me over the top into the next level of running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like I have always had a hard time
identifying myself as a runner. Even running 44 half marathons it was still
sometimes like I didn’t accept that reality.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was the monkey on my back. Like I wasn’t a real runner until I’ve
done a marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s like in crossing
that threshold I have crossed my imaginary line into true runner. It’s game on
from here on out. Yes obsessive compulsive much. </div>
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We will see how it all plays out. Of course I have said
those words before I know I have and somehow it all seem to eventually work
itself out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It does.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I always find something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I swear my body is making up for its first 25
years of inactivity.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t seem to sit
still anyway. I am too excited about what is next for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I should try and slow down a bit to enjoy the
moments as they are happening though. </div>
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Life is crazy precious and it can be taken from you in a
blink of an eye. (Ah ha, horrific shooting that occurred yesterday in Oregon)
Way to close to home for my liking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I
vow to not take it for granted or waste away the precious gift of life. And in
that pursuit check back tomorrow afternoon for a very special 3 year weight
loss anniversary announcement. </div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-4701488930338434992015-10-01T11:13:00.002-07:002015-10-01T11:13:46.348-07:00Just a feeling<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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Good morning. Once again I woke up feeling beyond
fabulous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I truly think it’s because my
body is responding so well to being back to clean eating and living. I am not
putting crazy amounts of stress or pressure on my body. I think this
contributed to my slight 2 week downfall before my trip. It always happens. It’s
just too much pressure I put on myself. And now I just have a sense of relief
honestly. I have the marathon monkey off my back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And now I can just relax and return to my
normal life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And my body loves it. I
feel great and happy and healthy and ready for whatever challenges come next.</div>
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So this is where we are at. Technically I am still on my
marathon training plan. There was a “recovery” period post marathon that lasts
3 weeks that’s supposed to be about easing back into running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Technically at this moment in time there are
5 runs left on my plan. I am doing those runs because well, that’s what I
do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But once that last run is checked
off, I kind of want to plan another plan, does that makes sense? I kind of want
to make a new plan because I just liked following one so much. And basically I
don’t want to lose my current sense of comfort and fitness level but mostly it’s
because I don’t want to lose my current level of happiness and sense of
self-love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It really all boils down to
how happy I am with myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have never
ever had this level of contentment or belief in myself and that is something
that I want to fight to hang on to. </div>
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Do you know how long it’s taken me to get to this exact
point in my life? Um, like almost 11 years I think. Well probably my whole life
really. But this is what I thought I’d feel like after I lost weight the first
time. Somehow naively I thought that once I lost weight that I’d just be happy
and love myself and my body and all those negative little voices in my head
would go away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Silly naïve girl.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It has taken my the better part of 11 years
to realize that simply losing weight is obviously not enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That true self-love and self-contentment has
very little to do with weight loss or the size of your jeans but everything to
do with what is going on on your inside, in your heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For me I can honestly say it only started to
occur once I realized how much I was capable of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The process really started when I joined the
gym and continued to grow and morph into this woman who started to really live
her life and that is when it finally hit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If I’m being honest my growth towards self-love occurred the moment I
ran my first half marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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And then, oh, and then, it’s gone to a whole new level the
moment I put the plan of action into place to train for my marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To say marathon training changed my life is
an understatement.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t even know why
or how it did but it just did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>5 months
and everything in my life came into full focus.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>5 months and forever a lifetime changed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I thought I was happy before and I was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But this is a whole new level.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Its ultimately about chasing a dream and accomplishing it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is where the happiness and contentment
come in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s in achieving goals.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve always known that achieving goals is
what I thrive off of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thus the being
good at losing weight. It’s an obtainable, trackable goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Apparently so is marathon training.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have found a new love! Sigh. Just what this
obsessive compulsive girl needs right?</div>
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Somewhere about 2 years ago, right after going the gym and
running my first half marathon I had this lightbulb moment where I knew that I
was on a different path in my life than I’d ever traveled down before. I
remember clear as day sitting in my living room talking to Chris and was dead
serious (we were just coming off a really rather horrible patch of time) when I
was like, Somehow I am different and I am tired of standing in my own way in
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I can feel that I am ready to
do great things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I am ready to
travel down this path. I have all this passion inside of me and it’s about to
explode the fuck out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I said, “Either
you get on board with me, or you get the fuck out of my way!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was completely serious. I knew I was on the
brink of something big and special.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To
his credit he got on board and we’ve never looked back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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What an epic 2 years it’s been.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I could bottle this feeling and break it
out on rainy days I certainly would. I’d also wish I could share this feeling with
everyone, but alas, it’s something that you have to do for yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There were plenty of times I wish I could
have fed off of someone else’s happiness and motivation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But in a small way we all do feed off of one
another. This is the nature of sharing our stories to begin with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I can do is hope that anything I ever do
helps or inspires anyone else to take a chance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You will never regret it! </div>
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At the end of the day I am just a normal regular old woman.
Nothing fancy or special about me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
wasn’t born particularly athletic or blessed genetically. In fact I’d say the
odds were always stacked against me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Both sides of my family were heavily obese. My childhood was spent
wasting away the days in inactive pursuits.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Health and wellness and physical endeavors were not really
championed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s no one’s fault.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s not that if we had showed any
inclination towards athletics we would not have been supported it’s just it
wasn’t natural to any of us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m really
just a pretty typical standard story of a girl who grew up overweight and
insecure and didn’t believe in herself one bit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And who always let her own self-doubt and insecurity get in the way of
living her life. All of it. I don’t think I actually think I lived until I was
25 years old.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And even still it’s taken
me all the way until 36 to love myself and not be afraid. </div>
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To all of my longtime friends who check in on me, this has
been quite the amazing ride hasn’t it?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have evolved in a way I am completely proud of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I see the difference. The difference in the way I talk about myself, the
way I feel about myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Almost 3 years
now and there is honestly no end in sight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I always knew this time was different. I felt it in my core 3 years ago
when I started AGAIN.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was not wrong. </div>
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It’s already October. I can hardly believe it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2015 is heading towards its climatic
conclusion. Climatic perhaps because I have a few tricks left up my sleeve yet
for 2015.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did you know that next month I’m
going to Vegas again to run the Rock N Roll half.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And guess what… Amanda and her boyfriend Rick
are going with us. Yup. Same flight, same hotel. Amanda is running her first
half marathon with me. How cool is that? She will be a lifelong friend. That is
certain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some people are just your
kindred spirit. (Anne of Green Gables much?) </div>
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What the hell is the plan for 2016? Don’t know yet but I
also know that while it seems nearly impossible to top the epicness of 2015, I
also didn’t think 2014 was ever going to be beat and yet 2015 is pulling
ahead.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am sure there are some things
out there that I haven’t even envisioned yet but I’m not afraid.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why would I be? I keep thinking that maybe it’s
time to slow down a bit. Like less travel because we need a bit of a break from
it all, but who knows. I never say never you know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somehow something always has a way of popping
up. </div>
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I kind of think my post marathon high hasn’t worn off just
yet. Or at least I’m not ready to let the glow die. But why should I?
Seriously. If it enables me to push myself and feel good I should hang onto it
for as long as possible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just how I knew
2 years ago I was on the edge of something big, I kind of have this gut feeling
that I’m just starting right now to write the next chapter of my life. That
while I can’t clearly see it, that something else is on the horizon for
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I no longer fear any of it.</div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-10623417802109797802015-09-30T16:42:00.002-07:002015-10-01T10:01:36.370-07:00Its almost 10/5<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s almost the end
of the day and almost time for me to get to the gym, but I have been thinking
the past couple days about a looming date. October 5 to be exact. Do you know what
October 5 is? This will in fact be my 3 year anniversary date of starting my healthy
lifestyle. October 5 is the first day I began my transformation 3 years ago. 3
freaking years! Boy how time flies when you are having fun and learning to love
yourself and growing beyond your wildest expectations. 3 years. And I do in
fact have something special planned for this weekend to celebrate. It’s a
secret until this weekend. But I promise it will be a good one. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">3 years. I just reread my post on my 1 year anniversary and
it was profound and amazing. A letter to myself from the future. Boy it was
awesome and I loved the idea so much I do think I might go ahead and formulate
another letter for my 3 year anniversary. I just keep getting better and better
with time and more and more humbled honestly by what I am capable of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That girl, 3 years ago, had ZERO idea what
she was in for.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And how wonderful her
life could be. And how much everything she ever wanted was within her all
along.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was always there. Incredible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Do you know what it’s like to truly love yourself enough to
go for your epic dreams? I didn’t. It has taken a long time to figure it all
out. But I am floored by the fact that I’m approaching 3 years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the 11 years since losing the weight for
the very first time I have only once celebrated a 1 year weight loss anniversary.
The very first time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No other weight
loss stuck a full year. And now we are at 3 years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Its<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>beyond evident to me I am a completely changed woman and I won’t ever,
like EVER be returning to that former life. I don’t even know how to anymore. I
may get moments of blah or feeling lost but overall this is who I am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is was who I was always supposed to be. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">3 entire years. I feel like that totally calls for an off
the charts kind of celebration. Except I won’t. It’s a Monday so what can I
really do? But hint Sunday I might be doing something cool.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyhow just wanted to pop by and acknowledge
the epic-ness that is coming. I need to write a letter soon. Last year to
celebrate 2 years I ran the Rock N Roll San Jose half marathon and got my PR at
the time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I remember being incredibly
emotional for lots of reasons. And here we are another year down. Whatever I’m
doing in my life is clearly working for me. 3 years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s hard to believe how completely different
your life can become in 3 years. Like night and day, 1000% different. And
better. Never stop believing that you can achieve anything you desire. You have
the power within you. Always.</span></div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-82134054996917713602015-09-29T13:22:00.001-07:002015-09-29T13:22:52.614-07:00Woo hoo life<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Woo hoo life! Yes, I
really said that today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel so much
better after my yesterday. Just getting thru the first day back post vacation
is typically hard. But mostly it was so good to feel in control again of my
food and exercise. Yes, I had a day of good solid clean eating and boy do I
feel so much better as a result.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
then there was the gym.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I needed a good
workout back on track to remind me that I won’t fall apart. That even if I go
on vacation I will always return to my normal way of life. Or at least what is
now normal for me. </div>
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<br /></div>
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I really want to dial in on some new goals or plans.
Marathon training has in fact changed me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I didn’t realize how much these last 4 months have made me a different
person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A person who loves life and
embraces everything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How much I freaking
love a solid plan. I need a new solid plan of action. I’m going to figure
something out. I am certain of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is what I know. I love running. Yes, there was a period of time
where I struggled with trying to figure out running vs. gym and lifting in my
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There was a time where I had a
hard time identifying myself as a runner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But ultimately running is what brings me my greatest feeling of personal
satisfaction and worth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t ever
want to lose that part of me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I don’t
have to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Lifting weights and having
muscles is fabulous and I also don’t want to quit being that girl either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know, I want it all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Always have.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But the truth is, In the last 4 months of my life I have figured out a
way to truly be happy and be regimented and still live a fabulous healthy life.</div>
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I have never been more clear about who I am than I have been
the last 4 months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know what it takes
to make myself happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Running and
achieving goals will always be a part of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>A strong part of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a
runner for life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have also developed
such a strong sense of self that I realize that aside from Amanda I know no one
as regimented and determined as myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I know I possess everything I need to be successful already inside of
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am past the point in my life where
I “need” someone else to guide or direct me. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know what to do all on my own.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In essence I’ve been at this long enough I am
capable of being my own personal trainer as well as someone else’s
probably.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Although I have no official
actual certificate that says this, I know I could. I’m not trying to train
anyone else at this point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am more
than happy with possessing enough motivation and knowledge to simply no longer
fear any gym or any workout life “on my own”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I am glad I have Amanda in my life and I am certain that she will always
be in my life but I don’t need her anymore. I love her, and I appreciate her in
my life and will always go to her for guidance and encouragement because we all
can use that but I don’t “need” her to succeed. This is a fabulous feeling.</div>
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<br /></div>
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I have a hard time putting my finger on exactly what it is
about marathon training that changed me so much or how it changed me, but I know
the biggest thing I have walked away with is confidence. Confidence in myself in
a way that I have simply never possessed in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Coming from a girl who ran half marathons
like it was my job, it still didn’t accomplish the same thing as a
marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For some reason running half’s
always well made me feel like I was half way doing it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like somehow, a half wasn’t really
enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That to be a true runner I had
to run a full marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But mostly I was
scared of failure. Somewhere along the way in training I knew I was not going
to fail.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not miss a single training
run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was 100% completely consistent
with the entire plan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Doing above and
beyond what it called for.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am
obsessive compulsive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have always
known that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Regardless I feel good today. Thank goodness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really think it’s the spiraling out of
control that throws me off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The two
weeks prior to vacation my eating was just well fairly terrible and that
mentally made me feel like shit. I am not upset at all about any of the crap
food I ate in Maui. That was always going to happen.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I am glad to have control again. I am
glad to be back working towards my normal life again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I clearly have made the decision to not weigh myself or
measure or anything at all related to weight or body fat or anything like that.
I don’t want to know. I want to be happy. And often times I feel like the scale
and measurements are counterproductive to happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am happy with the woman I see in the mirror
and it doesn’t really matter what the weight says. The moment I see that number
my brain goes into crazy town.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Always
has.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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This is what I am doing. This is my new plan of action. I am
seriously honestly not going to weigh myself for a long while. I am hoping to
hold out a month. But I am not making an exact promise of that. But I would
like to just live my normal happy healthy life for the next month and maybe
then on November 1 I will consider weighing myself just because.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I do so much better when I take the scale out of the
equation. Seriously. When I live each and every day with health and doing good
for my body in mind I am a happier version of myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And when I live moment to moment in a real
life focused on health and wellness only good things can come from that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Since I have the aforementioned obsessive compulsive tendencies its best
to not let the scale be any part of the focus of my existence.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s way more important to eat to live to be
strong to train.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, eat to train
properly. Eat to fuel my body. Eat to build muscles and run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t believe in depravation. I believe in
quality foods that make me feel good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
believe in drinking water when you are thirsty instead of obsessing about
adding that weight to the scale.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is
beyond STUPID.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But someone scale focused
will always think twice about that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
want to eat like an athlete.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And when I
do that, perhaps weekly weights and numbers get skewed. But long term when you
are kind to your body you will see results.</div>
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I am excited to embark on a new path. A new plan of action
where health once again takes center stage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Not that I wasn’t healthy these past 4 months. I was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s just after a couple weeks kind of “off”
plan it’s refreshing to regain that control.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>A feel a sense of relief honestly about not having to get on the scale.
I get to just be me. Healthy old regular me. For now that is simply enough.</div>
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I feel good with where I am at right now. I feel refreshed
and renewed and like I get to start at ground zero again and there’s always a
sense of excitement in fresh starts. I am not exactly sure what I am “starting”
but I’m in a much better place today than I was a year ago at this time. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel a little bit of that old fire in my
belly right now for something epic.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like
I want to set another epic goal to achieve.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Like the old saying, why not me?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I know I can do anything I set my mind to. I know that. Maybe I’m just
going to become a marathon runner now?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Maybe that’s good enough for a while. I just don’t want to lose my
current level of fitness. I really like where I am at. I like how happy I am. I
like being able to do anything I set my mind to. </div>
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I don’t know. Maybe I’ve become ADD as I’ve gotten older but
I just hate sitting still. I might have something in the pipeline but I’m
hesitant to say too much at this point. Stay tuned. </div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-35355027962608207052015-09-28T16:09:00.002-07:002015-09-28T16:09:27.761-07:00I am a Marthoner<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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Boy I really fell off the bandwagon didn’t I? I am not going
to lie, the two weeks leading up to my vacation were stressful and hard and I
fell apart as I tend to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nothing
crazy ridiculous. I kept up with all of my marathon training runs but ultimately
my diet went to shit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not shocked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I managed anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew there was going to be a fundamental
shift in my life post marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was
not wrong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Today is my first day back at
work post Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is typically a hard
day in general. Returning to work after an extended period of time away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But thankfully my work is actually fabulous
and I adore the people I work for and everything went well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So let’s talk about the one thing that I
really need to talk about.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Running 26.2
miles. </div>
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<i><u>
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<i><u>The Marathon</u></i></div>
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In a lot of ways I fully expected the actual marathon to be
much different than it really was. In a lot of ways I was anticipating a
horrific, terrible endeavor that would leave me depleted, drained and
euphorically high.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some of that was
true, some of it turned out to be all hype.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>When you spend the better part of 10 years of our life secretly wishing
for something but terrified of actually doing it, it’s impossible for the
actual accomplishment of it not to be in some ways a letdown.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But in other ways it was also the most
satisfying thing I’ve ever done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Clearly
I have a lot of mixed emotions about the whole thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So let me back the train up and start from
the beginning. Because the beginning is always a good place to start!</div>
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Arriving in Maui I couldn’t help but feel happy and high.
And nervous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried my best to maintain
the nerves in my stomach because I knew deep down I was fully prepared and
ready to run this marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>thinking that I was in fact really ready and
I didn’t think it would actually be that hard given how much training I had
actually done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But then that little bit
of fear crept in. That fear that says, what if I am missing something?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I read articles which in hindsight probably
didn’t help much, because they talked about the what-if’s and those worse case scenarios
where runners would finish marathons and collapse and be in aching pain and I
even read one where the person was peeing blood.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t quite sure how this could happen to
me, any of it, as I ran so frequently and long enough distances.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But still, there was fear.</div>
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I knew Maui was going to be hot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Pre-race information told us that Maui was in
fact experincing record high temperatures’ and humidity off the charts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to ignore this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It would be what it would be after all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have run in heat before and yes, it did
slow me down, but I still managed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
actually wasn’t nervous about it for some reason.</div>
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At the airport I was greeted to a sign that said welcome
Runners and I almost burst into tears.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>All the months of planning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>9
months of knowing I would be going to Maui to run on top of 10 years of
thinking I wasn’t capable of running a marathon all converged into this
trip.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And seeing that sign made it oh so
very real.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We got our rental car which
always takes crazy forever for some reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And then we were off to the expo for packet pick up.</div>
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I was excited because typically I love packet pick up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But once we were in place and I saw the
medals and the shirts I was actually kind of disappointed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not what I was expecting really, but that’s
okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It wasn’t all about the shirts and
medals.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was honestly about running
26.2 miles and I was still feeling happy and confident.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Saturday morning we woke up early to run a 10k, then a 5k
and then the 1 miler as part of our warrior challenge. I initially thought that
this was a great idea because the 10k run would acclimate me to the weather and
conditions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In hindsight it wasn’t the brightest
idea perhaps.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What actually ended up
happening was this… I ate crappy the night before, first night on vacation and
while I didn’t drink any alcohol I severely underestimated what a day of travel
and bad eating and dehydration would do to my system.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>On Friday night I actually threw up a couple
times simply from bad food and yucky feeling. Not nerves. Just system
overload.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The minute the 10k started I
knew I didn’t feel great. My stomach felt awful and I went out way to fast of
course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And inevitably after a couple
miles I knew I was in trouble.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The 10k
started at 6:30 AM, where the marathon would start at 5 AM. I thought this
would be a great indicator of weather conditions as I would clearly be running at
this time the next day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All it proved to
do was freak me out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>By the end of the
10k run it was miserable hot and I knew that I was in trouble.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My side starting aching from dehydration and
I slowed down and felt like I wanted to vomit. Oops.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the 10k time was great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I finished it in 57:13, with a pace of 9:12
miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is faster than I wanted to
run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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After the 10k, I felt horrible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like it was way too hard to run just 6.2
miles in this heat and it honestly psyched me out in a crazy way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Right after the 10k, was a 5k which I had
always intended to walk with my family.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I didn’t need to prove anything to anyone at this point and I thought it
would be more enjoyable to share the experience with my mom and cousins and
aunts who were doing it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So that is what
I did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I honestly couldn’t get the 10k out of my brain and
immediately vowed with my stomach issues that Saturday I was going to be 100%
clean.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Lots of water and lots of good
foods.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We bought spaghetti from Safeway
and made our normal dinner in the condo. My body was pretty much demanding
consistency.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the weather really had
me freaked out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Running 6.2 miles was
hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t prepared for that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sigh. I managed to remain fairly calm most of
the day, putting all the rest of the crazy out of my brain enough to enjoy the
day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But what can’t be avoided or
escaped is the reality of the night before. As I set everything out for race
day, it all started to hit me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was
doing my best to not allow a major freak out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We had to wake up at 2:30 AM, to be out the door by 3 AM to catch the
shuttle bus from the finish line to the start line by 3:30 AM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am very fortunate that my cousin’s husband
Tim was there with us and he volunteered to drive us to the shuttle bus in the
morning, at 3 AM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What a great guy! <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Honestly, my cousin Chelsea and Tim were so
important and amazing support but I will tell you about that later.</div>
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So despite some nerves I still managed to sleep solid,
thankfully.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I woke at 2:30 AM on
Sunday morning I was a psychotic bundle of nerves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>On a plus side my stomach felt the best it’d
felt since arriving in Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My careful
eating and drinking the day before paid off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My stomach was solid but unfortunately full of crazy nerves at this
point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I started to almost panic as I
gathered everything and headed down to the car.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I knew my nerves were on high alert in the car ride in the pitch black
to the shuttle bus.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My stomach was
gurgling and I had to use the bathroom so bad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is how my body deals with stress.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was beyond nervous and both Chris and Tim in the car knew it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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But it was all out of my hands at this point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s like the reality of what I was doing was
just hitting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was what it was but it
didn’t stop me from being terrified.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Getting on the bus and seeing all these slender runner types I couldn’t shake
my knee jerk reaction which was that, “OH God, everyone will see right thru me
and know I don’t really belong here, on this marathon bus.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Funny how insecurity places havoc on your
brain.</div>
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I almost hyperventilated. True story. In the dark on the bus
I tried to self-calm.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was nearly
impossible. I browsed Pinterest for quotes to remind me that marathon running was
about a greater picture than just this panicked moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I was working towards some epic goal
that I had set for myself and I could do it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But I think that bus ride, which felt extremely long was quite possibly
the longest and most challenging 30 minutes of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Clearly the distance we traveled was 26.2
miles and it took forever and highlighted the epic distance that I was supposed
to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept trying to breath. I
closed my eyes a bunch because I didn’t want to watch the course go by in slow
motion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I needed to quite the voices in
my head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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As soon as we arrived at the start line and got off the bus, I felt a little
calmer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have done this a million
times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>44 half marathons and countless 5
and 10k’s before me, starting lines were something I was familiar with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There was a feeling of normalcy in them.
Although I knew this one was different.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I had to use the bathroom where my nerves kept getting the better of
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I had to use it again. And
again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup, nerve city here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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And then it started to rain. And it was glorious. It was
warm, and it was crazy humid already but the warm rain in the dark felt
great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then we lined up and we
started “walking” in a heard to the actual start line.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I knew that this was it, for better or
worse, this was my marathon. This was a lifetime and 9 months of knowing it
would happen, and the last 4 months of training all coming down to this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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And the buzzer sounded and we were off. I have never ran in
the dark like that before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I wasn’t
alone clearly and I felt safe but it was a different experience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was dark so I could not see my watch and
therefore the first miles were all run on “comfort” not to any particular pace.
I kept telling myself just run comfortable. Who cares about the time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was already hot. 5 AM and I knew it was
going to be a long day. It was hot and humid and it was raining and I knew this
first part would be the most enjoyable part of the whole thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But getting out of your own way sometimes is
the hardest part.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept trying to tell
myself to breath and not care about pace. But I couldn’t help it when I could
check my watch I realized my comfortable pace was much slower than I wanted to
be running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it was the heat
already.</div>
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The entire first 3-4 miles were run in the dark, with a
slight uphill climb to them. Very subtle but enough that my body knew I was
slightly inclining.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My pace hovering around the 10:20 mark.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The rain came down and it was
refreshing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My music played. Nothing
hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have always said that during a
run I pretty much know within the first 2 miles how the race is going to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know early if I feel okay vs a bad day. I
may always complete my runs on a bad day but they will be a struggle.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After about a mile and a half I knew I was
okay. I knew my body felt okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My
stomach issues from the day before were all better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My body felt good and capable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank God I thought.</div>
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I ran on in the dark for miles, and they ticked by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 4, Mile 5 and then somewhere around Mile
6 the sun started to rise and I finally could see my surroundings, my legs felt
amazing and I looked over to my right and saw the beautiful mountains of Maui,
the tropical “Jurassic Park” feeling and almost immediately tears formed in my
eyes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is it. This was the reminder
finally, visually that I wasn’t in Oregon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was in fact in Maui running my marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Mile 6-7 I sped up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
started to feel REALLY good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 8, I
felt so great I was almost giddy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s
the runners high.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 9 was feeling
epic, almost ready to break out my phone to text my family to let them know how
great I was in fact doing, despite the heat, when all of a sudden up ahead I saw
my cousin Chelsea and her husband Tim who had decided to be our on course race
support. What lovely people!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There they
were with camera in hand, snapping photos, and there with Gatorade and food to
replenish me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I smiled, and gave my
cousin a thumbs up because I felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I drank a little and felt so amazing knowing I was doing this.</div>
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Mile 10 felt awesome. And I was like, hey only 16.2 miles to
go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, that’s a crazy thought to have
I know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 11 felt great. Saw my
cousins again. Still feeling great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hit
mile 12, and then the fabulous mile 13.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Shortly after that, when my Garmin registered 13.1 I smiled because no
matter what<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was now closer to the
finish than the start. Every step took me closer to the finish. I was still
around a 10:20 pace at this point. I knew I would slow down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I would get more tired and the heat
would take its toll. Let’s not forget that every single step was run in heat
and humidity like I have never experienced.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ran with a water bottle in my hand for the first time and I am certain
I would not have survived without it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
drank constantly. Every water station I would fill the bottle up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was vital!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>At this point they were handing out wet sponges at each station as
well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would literally just drip the
water on me and wipe myself with the sponge. It was HOT!</div>
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But halfway was still feeling okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 14, Mile 15.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 16.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Heck, yeah 10 miles to go. I can do this!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 17 I saw my cousins again and this time
I was starting to feel it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Tim asked, do
you need anything?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I simply replied, “For
this to be done!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was hot. It was
starting to get so hot I could barely handle it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My body felt fine. My legs felt great.
Nothing ached. Nothing hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was just
HOT.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The air felt so thick almost like I
was navigating thru a cloud.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I slowed
down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I passed mile 18. My pace was
going higher. I kept trying to do math in my head to figure out times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew an 11:03 pace was a 4:53
marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because that is what my plan
had prepped me for all along.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had no idea
beyond that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somewhere at like mile 18 I
felt really drained.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Barely.</div>
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Mile 19 and I believe I walked a moment and then tried to
run again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Have you ever tried to run
after going for like 4 hours in 90 degree weather with humidity so thick you
swear you could almost “see” it?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had
to force myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The scenery was
beautiful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The ocean on my left.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s too bad I was in such misery that I
barely noticed it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Somehow this was not
the experience I was expecting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It wasn’t
the run. It wasn’t the distance. It was the heat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 20 came and I was running into town. My
town. Lahaina.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We literally ran right in
front of my hotel. My favorite place in the world. And I got teary. I can do
this I told myself. I can do this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
it was SO HOT.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My body no longer wanted
to move.</div>
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I walked a bit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We
came upon front street Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And unexpectedly
I heard my name and looked over to my right and there was my mom, my two aunts
and my sister with a giant sign and I couldn’t barely contain my tears. I had
no idea they’d be there or with such a fabulous sign.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My mom came over to me and hugged me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I said, this is BRUTAL. I just want to
finish, I don’t care about my time. It’s so hot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And at this point I meant it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not sure the human body is really meant
to endure countless hours in that level of heat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I pushed on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At about mile 21 I had to go to a run/walk
method.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Run from this point to that
point, and then walk from this point to that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was all I could do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My legs
felt like they could run. They could have.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The sweltering heat told a different story.</div>
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I wanted to enjoy the moments more, but the misery wasn’t
allowing for it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus my own personal dissatisfaction
as I watched my pace and time tick by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
didn’t really care about my time but in my mind I knew I could run better than
this. And I just wanted the opportunity to run it. With each mile at this point
I knew I was getting closer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mile 22,
Mile 23 and I was like, it’s just a 5k now. I CAN so do this.</div>
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Run/walk. Run/walk. Run/walk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I was on the final stretch. I had no
idea what my time was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew my pace
had crept above the 11:03 mark which was a 4:53 marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was in the 11:20 or something range. I had
no idea if that would be good enough ultimately to get me below the 5 hour
mark.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My brain was dead at this
point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could not do the math. As I rounded
a corner I knew I was within ½ a mile of finishing and all I could do was run
it out to the best of my ability at this point and pray I was under 5 hours. My
body did not want to run. It was too hot. </div>
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I truly felt like I would have been way happier or more
emotional to finally see the home stretch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I saw my family cheering me on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
saw the official clock and it was at 4:59 something as in hours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to sprint as fast as I could.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I was within seconds of the 5 hour
mark. Now it was just a race to beat the clock under 5. I gave it everything I
had and I heard the announcer say my name and say just squeaking in under the
coveted 5 hour mark.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Chris was instantly
there at the finish with me and I hugged him and I swear almost collapsed into
his arms.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thankful I had at least broke
the 5 hour mark, especially considering how challenging this was.</div>
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I immediately almost wanted to pass out or vomit. Or
both.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We took some pictures but it
became evident to me that my body was out of whack. I always tend to get nauseous
after I run so it wasn’t shocking that running 26.2 in this kind of heat was
going to make me feel bad. I sat down. I thought I would puke or pass out. They
had a medic tent that was administering IV fluids. My family tried to get me to
go to it. I said I was fine. I just needed a bathroom I was going to puke.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We went to the bathroom. I threw up a little
and felt a little better. I knew ultimately it was going to be rough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But that is my weakness with running. I
honestly throw up a lot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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We got in the car to go back to the hotel. We stopped along
the side of the road to watch some turtles swimming. I<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>threw up again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The heat was unreal. As we watched the
turtles, now almost an hour post finishing, we were along the marathon course
route and I saw runners walking/jogging by. I felt sorry for them for still
having to be out in the heat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I couldn’t
imagine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>5 hours was horrible
enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we got back to the room I
spent about 45 minutes hugging the toilet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I felt pretty sick. I pretty much threw up for quite a while before I
must have finally berid myself of all of whatever was upsetting me because
suddenly I got crazy hungry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was
like, finally, my stomach feels fine, FEED me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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The entire thing honestly went by in such a blur that I
swear I didn’t feel the way I thought I’d feel. In so many ways it was so much
easier than I thought it would be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
other ways it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Running in that heat for that long was the
hardest thing ever. Running 26.2 miles was easier than I thought. Far and
away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know my body can totally handle
running 26.2 miles. I am beyond certain of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So much so that I am desperate to actually
run a marathon in Oregon now where I won’t be dying of heat stroke or running
in off the charts humidity.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I felt amazing proud that I did it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humbled by the heat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I must admit slightly disappointed
because I was certain I could physically run 26.2 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still think I can.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Initially I was happy to have finished off
course and proud but I just didn’t feel super great about my 5 hour time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But it’s all about perspective.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was not an easy course. This was in fact
probably incredibly difficult in terms of marathons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because in the end, when I compare myself to
the entire race results I realize I did pretty dang awesome.</div>
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203 out of 537 finishers</div>
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71 out of 256 females</div>
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11 out of 39 Females ages 35-39</div>
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This is actually fabulous because it shows you that this was
a tough course for EVERYONE.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I
truly have nothing to be upset or disappointed about at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My age group, females 35-39 is always the
most competitive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am in the peak of
marathon running years, so to finish 11 of 39 is crazy!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And 71 out of 256 females is REALY good. I
will take it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That was not easy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That was not easy at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I really do want to run one start to
finish without walking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Next one right?</div>
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And you know that there will be a next one because the
actual distance didn’t kill me. I know this because not only did my body feel
fine afterwards. But I felt fine the next day. I felt great. I ran a marathon
on Sunday and by Wednesday we were out on an epic hiking/climbing adventure in
the jungle and then on Thursday we woke up and ran 4.25 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My body can physically handle 26.2
miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s the heat. I am not sure I
ever want to do that again, but honestly we all know I would.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of course I’d come back to any of the
Hawaiian islands and do it all over again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Heat and humidity and all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of
course.</div>
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Here’s the truth. I am SO glad to have that running monkey
off my back. Yes, I have ran a full marathon. Yes, I know what it feels like.
Yes, I can do it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>FINALLY.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is a part of me that is still in shock
about it all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A part of me that doesn’t
believe I am actually a marathoner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
also a part of me that doesn’t believe how easy it was either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now let me say that when I say it was easy, I
mean, I was just expecting EPIC struggles. I was expecting feeling awful and
horrific tears of pain and feeling like I was going to die.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Those feelings never came.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was not easy. I don’t mean to imply in the
least that running a marathon is easy. It’s not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It requires every ounce of mental toughness
you have. It requires true training and determination. It requires everything I
had.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the thing is, I became the person
who could run a marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was ready.
It seemed “easy” because I had put in all the work to get to that place where I
could run the marathon.</div>
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I didn’t start out the person who could do this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In February when I signed up to run the
marathon. Or rather when I decided I was going to do it, running any distance
felt hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In January I ran a 5k and it
was HARD. I struggled running 3 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Yes, my body knew how to run and quickly remembered but it was a
humbling moment in January when I did a 5k and felt like I was going to
die.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I put in all the work to get to the
place to become a person who can run a marathon.</div>
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Over the course of all of this time, training, I somehow
became a different person. I knew it was happening. I knew the process was slowly
day by day little by little changing me until one day I realized I was somehow
completely different. In a way I just can’t even describe.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not even close to the same woman I was
when I started my training plan on May 6.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Somewhere between May 6 and September 20 I walked away a confident,
self-loving, self-accepting individual.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Yes, I have still put too much pressure on myself, things aren’t always
perfect, etc. But I am so forever changed as a result.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s like suddenly I realize the sky is the
limit for me and I am happy with the woman I am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I can run a marathon what else can I
do?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why would I ever want to limit
myself again?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why shouldn’t I love
myself and my body, it is so freaking amazing!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It was able to withstand 5 hours of brutality and feel fine
afterwards.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a beast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am strong. I am proud. I did this. I earned
this with every single workout I didn’t want to do but did anyway. With every
mile I endured to get to this point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
earned that medal. I earned this feeling.</div>
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Run a marathon they said. It will change our life they
said.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t sure. But now I am.
AMAZING.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This woman is a full on
marathoner. And this of course is just the beginning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Since when have I ever not gone for the next
brass ring.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t quit. I don’t
stop.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is who I am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a runner. Scratch that. I am a
marathoner. </div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-84037622619530160612015-09-04T11:52:00.000-07:002015-09-04T11:52:43.179-07:00Body Fat<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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It is finally Friday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is fabulous because it now is 2 weeks period until I am on my
plane.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Crazy to think about really.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My life really has come full circle if you think
about it. I just spent some time rereading some old blog posts from before I
went to Maui over 2 years ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In June
of 2013. This also happened to be around the time that I joined the gym for the
first time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had finally lost the
weight AGAIN and was close to 140 pounds and ready for my tropical Maui
vacation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I was scared what would
happen when I returned from Maui because that was the same exact point I have
been at in my life so many times previously and I ended up gaining all the
weight back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I needed something
different and enter the gym.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s beyond
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If you had told me 2 plus years ago, on the heels of going
to Maui that I would return in approximately 2 ¼ years to run a full marathon I’d
laugh my ass off at you. Although secretly I think I’d believe it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I remember that on that vacation I packed 1
running outfit because I thought it maybe might be fun to run outside on Maui
once.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It never happened! At that moment
in time I was too scared to run outside in public.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Crazy how 2 years can change a person to
their core.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Today I read some of my
posts around that time and I kept smiling, and shaking my head and mostly just
felt grateful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had no idea what
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When I got back from Maui within the week I was signing my
name on a million forms for a solid years’ worth of weekly personal
training.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One of the best decisions I
ever made in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Seriously. My
random musings told me how I scared I was and afraid.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know now how life changing it all really
was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I spoke lots of the athlete that I
thought I was deep down on the inside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
spoke of the fit chick that was dying to get out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I did cut down on the running as per the
trainer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But what you love will always
find a way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s been a long journey and
a struggle at points.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Balance is an
interesting thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I found a true love
for my fit chick but also a strong realization that I am actually a bonified
runner. And that shit will never go away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I embrace that now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Running is my
passion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I can still lift and build
muscles and work on being the best overall all around version of myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I can certainly tell that running changed me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Truly running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After I did all the strength training and my
body did change I was still utterly disappointed with myself and how I
looked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A year post working out, when I
honestly looked great I wasn’t happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
still belittled myself and had way to many body image issues.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I wasn’t running the way I have the past
while.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s like when I really started
to run, all the other stuff went by the wayside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s really been in the past year, but more
specifically the past 4-5 months since I really started this whole marathon journey
that I have found a sense of love and contentment and happiness within myself
and my body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s like I appreciate it
in a way now that I never did before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
feel blessed that it is so strong and capable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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I remember back almost 2 years ago now, when I was standing
at that defining moment where I knew I was at the brink of some major upheaval,
something big going down in my life that I pretty much looked at Chris and told
him… this is it, I am not turning back now. I have turned a corner and I know
now I am a different person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I am
moving forward full steam ahead with this life and either you get on board for
the ride and allow me to soar or you need to get the fuck out of my way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That sounds harsh but I remember the
conversation clearly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I was in
route to bigger things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To his credit,
Chris was never standing in my way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
to his credit, he got on board.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The man
is running a marathon after all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But it’s
like this inner beast in me was awoken and once she was, there was no caging
her again. I’ve pretty much felt that way solidly for the last 2 years of my
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But nothing like I’ve felt the
last 4-5 months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Marathon training has changed me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It has once again been that major crossroad
of my life that everything is suddenly different and I can’t ever go back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t explain it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know why that is. But it just
is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am forever altered and that is
perfectly okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Joining the gym was one
of the best decisions I’ve ever made in my life, and deciding to run a marathon
was another one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2 of my greatest most
defining life altering moments.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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When I got back from Vegas in May, actually on May 14 to be
exact I was 153.1 pounds and my body fat percentage was 26.9%.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have an OMRON body fat machine I bought
from Amazon years ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But funny thing
is I didn’t hate myself. I didn’t really care about those numbers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I just generally knew that I
wanted/needed to overall be in a bit better condition to run a marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And thus that Marathon Training began.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>REALLY began.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And so to begin the best 4 months of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Funny how I describe training for a marathon
as the best time of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But somehow
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I really was just doing the things that I love for the past
4 months and in doing so, found myself completely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t “intentionally” lose weight, not
really.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t intentionally try to
drop my body fat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These were all just
the side effects of doing what I love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And this is probably what has made it the best time of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was truly enjoying my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Bonding with my husband.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Doing these epic things and feeling great and
happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The body was the side
result.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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This morning for the hell of it, I took my body fat again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Yup. 21.3%.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yesterday
my weight was 134.1<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So that means, just
by doing my thing, in 4 months I went from 153.1 t0 134.1 and from 26.9% to
21.3%<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is pretty insane.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And because body fat percentages mean not a
whole hell of a lot to me, I looked it up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Turns out that’s LEAN.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For my age
that puts me in the lean category. Yes, the high end of lean. But still
lean.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Women have 10-13% essential body
fats.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Meaning that for us to function we
are simply going to be 10-13% body fat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That is our zero point, unless you are like insanely shredded or doing
steroids. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At like 14-15% women start to
lose their periods, etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is about
the lowest women tend to get 14% ish.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Anyway, without really trying or working at it I will gladly be thrilled
with 21.3% honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Who am I kidding I’m
not putting out the muscle building effort as of late that I have in the
past.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I actually miss some heavy strength training and fully
intend to tackle it again once I get back from Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am NOT giving up running though.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will still try to come up with some plan
and stick to it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need consistent
running in my life and basically I don’t want to lose my ability. I want to
always be able to run a half marathon on a moment’s notice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s my plan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I don’t tend to track my body fat the way I do my weight
because well it doesn’t change that often I think.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I do have a few numbers from my life here
and there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I joined that gym and
signed up for personal training back on 6/17/13 my starting body fat was
27.7%<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Those first couple months when I
didn’t run so much and hit up strength training really hard I did get my body
fat around the 21% mark, somewhere around there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But that was the only time I’ve seen it that low.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m thrilled with where it’s at right
now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Again, I don’t anticipate it
getting much lower.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is pretty much
as good as it gets for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is
pretty much me in my peak condition right now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You probably don’t get much better than 2 weeks before a marathon that
you’ve spent 4 months training for.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
accept that. I really do. I would anticipate that all the numbers are going to
go up a little. But for today, I am just happy with where I’m at.</div>
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This all leads me to that whole post Maui what now
thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Seriously. I anticipate and
expect an increase in weight and body fat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But I don’t want to gain a ton.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
really do like where my body is at right now. I feel so good about myself.
Probably partly because I am working towards such an identifiable goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I’m just going to have to try and figure
something else out honestly. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s
pretty much my thinking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And for the
record Chris is experiencing the same kind of results by marathon training
to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He is down almost 20 pounds and
dropped about 6-7% body fat too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He is
also loving his body and results right now so he’s not keen to give it up
either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I keep telling him that when we
get back I just want to go right back to the way we’ve been living and
eating.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He agrees. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So maybe. We will see.</div>
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I’m pretty happy and content and excited about life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Who wouldn’t be excited about going to Maui
in 2 weeks and accomplishing a goal you’ve been working towards for a solid 4
months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyhow. As for the rest of it.
Well today is a much needed rest day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
realized last night at the gym how much I needed a rest day when my body didn’t
want to do boot camp class.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was
HARD.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I realized my legs were sore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My butt was on fire and my hamstrings were in
pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup. The night before kind of
fried them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had mentally promised
myself I was going to burn 400 calories.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was only at 250 post class. I didn’t want to run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ended up on the stair climber.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That thing is a beast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My heart rate doesn’t get higher than it does
when I run but I drip sweat in an unbearable way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ended up doing 20 minutes and got to 450
calories burned.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>GOOD enough.</div>
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And I am overall tired and glad today is a rest day. I need
it. My body needs the day to repair itself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>No half marathons this weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There is one tomorrow I considered but ultimately passed because I didn’t
want to spend the money.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It would be
like $80 for each of us and right now, on the heels of going to Maui that seems
like a waste of $160.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We don’t need to
run another half nor do we need another medal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And honestly we don’t need the mileage. My training plan is calling for
8.5 miles this weekend. That’s it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We
are going to go to a park and just run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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And then these happened yesterday and honestly they are good
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Oh yeah, this is my body right now at 134 pounds. I like
having documentation of that because I promise you in another 2 years I might
be back here reading this exact post. Seriously. Comparing numbers and
percentages, etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that
transformation. Well, you get the idea.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-6511576970913853162015-09-04T10:00:00.000-07:002015-09-03T16:05:42.051-07:00Fashion FridayYup, it's once again Friday. And that means Fashion time. Just because this seems to be what I do. For now anyway. Someday I am certain I will get tired of it like I do most things. But until then. It's happening.<br />
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<br />Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-53841357798639886732015-09-03T10:50:00.001-07:002015-09-03T10:50:33.895-07:00Weigh in Time<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I’ve really slacked lately on this, right? As I get busy I
guess some things have to give here and there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But alas, I do love this little world and writing things out and
documenting my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Basically because
sometimes I will have a memory of something I did or felt from a long time ago
and I honestly come right here to this place to check and see if I wrote about
it, or where I was at mentally around that time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s actually really cool to have this place
to reflect on my life in the past so alas I just keep writing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am going to spare you all and myself the
trouble of writing out everything that happened the past couple days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Such a slacker, right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Instead I’m just going to go with the
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I want to talk a little about this process of weighing
myself on Thursdays.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>a love/hate thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I set this goal for myself “kind-of” to be
around 135 pounds when I went to Maui. I say kind-of because truthfully it wasn’t
the biggest most important thing in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I did this back in February when I decided to run the full marathon. I
know, because I created a spreadsheet like I do in Excel and thought about
tracking, etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The very first recorded
weight in the spreadsheet was February 12 and it was 154.5.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup, I knew I was around 155 pounds when I
first decided to run the full. And back in February running was hard for
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like hadn’t done it in forever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I didn’t hate myself at 155 pounds. I was
very happy honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s see if I can
track down a photo from February at 155 pounds, who are we kidding, of course I
can!</div>
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Anyhow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Me at 155
pounds was just dandy. I was living my life. I was happy. I knew I could stand
to lose a little weight of course but nothing that wasn’t manageable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I told myself that it would be pretty cool if
I ran the marathon at 135 pounds. If I could take 20 pounds off it sure would
make running 26.2 miles a lot easier. (I was not wrong about that!)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I also didn’t know if that was reasonable
or possible and I didn’t want to kill myself to get there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t want to obsess or become fixated on
the scale.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wanted health and nutrition
to still remain supreme.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is a fine
balance in my life. Anyhow. The loose goal was 135.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t know if it could be done but I also
knew I had loads of time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact, so
much time that I didn’t really even think about it for a very long time.</div>
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I was not unhappy at around 155 pounds you see. I looked
strong and muscular because I was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
wasn’t that worried about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact,
in February I never really tried to lose weight honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact I went all the way thru to May before
I actually decided that it might be time to try.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was like, holy hell, its May already and
when I started to follow my marathon training plan is when I really decided to
give it a go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact my chart tells me
that on May 21 I weighed 151.3 pounds, the following week 151.1.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay, cool.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Weight loss was the byproduct of marathon training.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was the byproduct of learning how to
properly fuel myself for long distance running. And low and behold as I lost
weight it got easier and easier.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
somehow the months of June and July went by and somehow in August I found
myself around that magical 140 pound mark.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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The scale was never really the motivating factor in my
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sure, hitting goals is lovely and
fabulous but the scale is messed up and I know it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But it does prove some value as a tool of
measure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is no denying the
numbers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And today, I hit another
milestone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kind of figured. Last week
I technically had a 1/10<sup>th</sup> of a pound gain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t think it was real honestly. I knew
it was just my body doing its wonky thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So technically this weight today is a reflection of 2 weeks of effort
but holy hell.</div>
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Today, 2 weeks away from Maui I weigh 134.1 pounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not going to lie I don’t anticipate it
getting much lower than this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The next
two weeks the goal is simply to not fall apart and maintain my current level of
health/fitness and nutrition.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I could
go to Maui anywhere in the 134-135 range then I have met and exceeded every
single goal I have set for myself. And that is what I am talking about!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is my excitement and happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This number doesn’t REALLY matter that
much.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But other than to note from when I
started this chart back in February and tentatively decided to lose weight for
the marathon, this represents a 20.4 pound weight loss or 13.2% of my starting
body weight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And honestly at 154.5
pounds I didn’t hate myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought I
looked pretty good so who knows.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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When I say who knows, I am not sure where I’m going to go
from here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love my body right now in a
way that I haven’t in my entire life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Because I feel really healthy and strong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I actually can tell now that at 155 pounds I
was fine, but I was carrying around some extra fat that I didn’t really need.
My body may be 20 pounds less on the scale but it is far from thin or sickly
looking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is honestly pretty strong
and healthy appearing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am in love with
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With all that said, I don’t want to
kill myself to maintain this weight long term.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But on another note, I don’t feel like I have been killing myself really
at any point to get here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m not
starving myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m just eating really
good healthy things. I am eating clean and eating yummy foods.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So honestly that IS something I should be
able to maintain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I have no illusion that upon my return from Maui that scale
isn’t going to be back up. It will.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am
not denying myself foods in Maui or alcoholic fruity beverages.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This will happen. Probably in abundance. But
I also don’t want to make myself sick either. That’s not how I want to spend my
vacation. But the scale will be up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My
plan is to just go enjoy myself, not worry about it and then when I return get
right back to my every day normal life and eating because honestly I love this
life. I love the way I’ve been living and totally think I can keep at it, just
as I have been going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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But this is where I might change things up a bit. I don’t
think I will weigh myself every week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Too much pressure and I don’t like it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will finish out these last two weeks because I started this process
and I’ll be damned I’m going to finish it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>BUT, it’s too much mental pressure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I am going to return to my roots of do good healthy things for my body,
treat it well, and the progress will be made. It will reward me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t want to go cold turkey from the scale
either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This does get me in trouble
too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe every 2 weeks? Maybe once a
month? I will find the balance that I need.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Ideally I’d love to maintain exactly where I am at.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel like overall I’m just in a great
place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think it’s possible. </div>
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And of course that brings me to post Maui, goals and
such.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I might take a little break for a
few months while I try and figure out the next big thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Immediately post Maui it will almost be
October. I am going to Vegas in November to run the rock n roll half.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I might just chill thru the new year
and reassess where I’m at and plans and goals.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But as of today my friends, 15 freaking days to Maui!</div>
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INSANE! And happiness and holy hell. 15 days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s about all I want to talk about
today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But for the hell of it I’m
throwing up my last couple night’s workouts here. I’ll spare the everyday Instagram
pictures, but I’d like documentation of the workouts nonetheless.</div>
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It’s been a couple days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Too many honestly and if I go any longer than I really am not going to
want to update this page and then I get so far behind it seems impossible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I am just going to go with the highlights
for right now so I feel caught up and let the rest of it go by the
wayside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Saturday I ran a half marathon
and then I proceeded to cross the finish line and turn around and run the 10k
course and then a little extra to run an entire 20 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup, my first 20 miles ever.</div>
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The thing of it is, this is EXACTLY what I needed and
wanted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is the way I thought I
would feel after I ran my 16 miles last week and instead felt like shit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt pretty defeated honestly from that 16
mile run. It was so much harder than I thought it would be and I wanted to
cry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could barely squeak out 16 miles
and I was terrified of running another 10 on top of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just felt BAD.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And mentally it was hard on me and therefore
I was off and it was just yucky.</div>
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Fast forward a week. The weather forecast called for rains
and winds on Saturday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was signed up
for a half. I knew I would run the half in the rain if I had to, but I was
reserving judgement of running more until I knew what the weather would
do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was supposed to run 18.5 miles.
That was the maximum top out distance on my marathon plan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But honestly I’ve said it before that I
feared my plan was not hard enough. I intentionally chose an easy plan because
that is what I needed when I started to be comfortable with the idea of training.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Turns out I should have done a more
complicated one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Either way, 18.5 was
what was on the agenda.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was terrified
given the nature of my 16 mile run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
somehow I also knew that I had run many 13.1 races and felt great afterwards and
like I could keep<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And yet last weekend at mile 8 I was
done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I was hoping that it was just a
fluke week and somehow running beyond 13.1 wouldn’t be as brutal. I didn’t
really talk too much about my impending long run because I wanted to give
myself an out if it was just miserable outside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I don’t think I could have forced myself to run another 5.5-7 miles post
running a half marathon if it was raining and miserable and I was cold and
wet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I just didn’t really talk about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I would have adapted and figured out something else. </div>
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We set our alarm Saturday morning for 5:00 AM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The half started at 7.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I was awoken at 4 AM to the most awful
sounds of torrential downpours followed by thunder and lightning outside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was like, son of a bitch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It kept going and going and I was not
happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really couldn’t get back to
sleep either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So at 5 I arose.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The thunder storm had subsided thankfully but
it was still raining.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to not get
to bent out of shape about it because things change on a dime.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus I do have seriously some of the best
runner weather luck known to man.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
universe is very good about supplying me clear skies just as I must run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It rained during the entire drive to the
race.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We parked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t thrilled.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It stopped raining. No joke.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It literally stopped raining as soon as we
stepped out of the car.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The skies parted
and we looked good to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Thankfully!!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was just windy.
It wasn’t cold so I was good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could
handle a little wind.</div>
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Tentatively I set the plan with Chris that we would run the
half and then meet back at the finish and go out and run the 10k course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was the last part of the half course and I
was hoping to squeak in with the half marathon walkers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>(We did catch them FYI).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It honestly could not have gone better than
it did.</div>
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I started out and was trying to keep my cool.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not go out to fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Try to pick a nice even pace to run at.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I honestly didn’t push myself too much and
before I knew it had settled into around a 9:45 minute mile pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had a moment where I was kind of beating
myself up because the first couple miles I can run at like a 9:10-9:20 minute
pace but then I had to remind myself that honestly, I needed to slow this bad
boy down and pick a place where I was comfortable and could live with for a
long while.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Part of my mess up last
weekend was because I went out WAY to fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I burned out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t pushing
myself crazy and honestly it felt pretty good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The first couple miles ticked by and I felt fine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I kept reminding myself this was a very
long race and I had a long ways to go yet. Just keep it at a nice comfortable,
not going to fry myself out pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I got to about mile 8 or 9, the place where I fell apart the
last week and I still felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay,
it was a fluke I thought.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I ran
on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept a really consistent pace for
pretty much every single mile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>9:50,
9:56, 9:56, 9:55, 9:51, 9:47, 10:01, 9:55, 9:41, 9:38.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was all right in there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt great. I stopped and drank at most
water stations.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I listened to my music.
I never felt like I was truly taxing myself beyond the point of no return.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Typically around mile 10 or so I start to hit
my tired wall.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It never came.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe part of that is psyching yourself out
knowing you are still going to run a lot more miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I felt really good and I ended up cruzing
into the finish line feeling awesome.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>2:09:11 was my official half time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Perfectly acceptable, considering how comfortable I felt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This still beats my PR time from last
year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Funny right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I crossed the finish line.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Found Chris immediately. Did NOT sit down. Grabbed
a bottle of water. Drank it. We walked to the car, tossed our medals in the
car.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Took a few moments to regroup,
drink water, and off we went towards the 10k course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still felt great.</div>
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So we started out and my legs easily found their pace once
again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt so good I couldn’t even
believe it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Chris was tired.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He was having more difficulty.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I just wanted to run. I had to taper
slowing down enough to encourage Chris with my desire to just run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The first couple miles were rough for Chris
so I had to slow down quite a bit to mentally push him on but after about 2
miles he found his groove again too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So
we ran on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And my mile 17 was a 9:54
mile, mile 18 was 10:13, mile 19 was 10:08 and finally mile 20 was <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>9:49. VERY consistent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not going to lie, I felt amazing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just slowing down my pace in this range was
exactly what was needed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I finished 20
miles in 3 hours 18 minutes, 11 seconds for a 9:54 minute mile average.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My one goal was to try and finish under a 10
minute mile pace, and I totally did it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was beyond shocked that I really literally RAN the entire 20 miles and
I still felt great. I didn’t hit my wall.</div>
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At the end of 20 miles I was certain I could have run
another 6.2 if I needed to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sure,
eventually I might have hit a wall but I was close enough at that point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I started marathon training my only real
goal was to finish and I expected to have to walk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never considered I could actually run the
entire 26.2 miles but now, now I think I can.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ran 20 miles and felt amazing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Maybe it was a fluke of a day to?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But this is exactly what I was expecting to feel honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mind over matter.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt so good it wasn’t even funny.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And this is EXACTLY where I needed to head
into Maui with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is what I needed to
feel. Good, confident, like I could do it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This was the overall best case scenario possible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran 20 miles straight and felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My confidence is thru the roof and honestly I
think that is the only way you stand any chance of surviving a full on
marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Funny how 1 week difference
can change everything so freaking much.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Black and white difference between the two weeks.</div>
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I just needed that one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Every part of me needed that one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And now I can breathe a sigh of relief because I did it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran 20 miles and I feel ready.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now today, is officially the start of taper.
Yup, I get to taper now. Less miles for me as we approach my marathon. It’s
less than 20 days away now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The actual
marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Less than 18 days until I
arrive on Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Holy cow!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>OMG.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But I am ready.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After this weekend
I am ready.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that is the most amazing
feeling in the world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am going to run
a marathon. I am really honestly going to run a whole marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am so ready to do this. And so glad I am
now onto the taper.</div>
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So after the run I ate way too much. Not shocked about that.
I mean, I did run 20 miles after all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
just ate and ate all day. I tried to make it healthier foods. It wasn’t all
awful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It could have been worse. I didn’t
track or measure or account for anything. I gave myself the one day to
indulge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then yesterday the goal was
really to rein it back in and do better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I can handle 1 day of indulgence its two where I start to feel bad
mentally.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t want to do anything
yesterday but I got up and made myself get dressed in workout clothes and that
really helped.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I decided I was going to go to the gym and do an upper body
workout. I have been missing the strength training and honestly am really
looking forward to getting back into it after the marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I went to the gym and decided to warm up
with a run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My legs felt amazing
yesterday. I was not sore in the least. Crazy right, considering I ran 20
miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But honestly felt better than I
have in a long time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I ended up running
4 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I tacked my upper body workout and
that also felt so good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I would end
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So then I came home, we went to the grocery store.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We came home, food prepped our chicken for
dinner. Took the dogs for a walk. Made an excellent dinner, watched a movie and
went to bed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I woke up feeling great
this morning because I was able to control myself yesterday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was able to actually eat healthy and not
over indulge CRAZY and still workout and I feel really proud of what I was able
to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Felt great this morning as a result.</div>
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And that happiness has carried me thru most of the day. The
high from running 20 miles so successfully and then working out and feeling
great and sore from yesterday and ready to finally get this all going.</div>
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And guess what else? Um, I booked my flight to Vegas for
November.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got an email about fall
bonus rewards for air miles and I was able to use our air miles and score both
Chris and I free flights to Vegas for the Rock N Roll run in November so that
made me extra happy today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Free
flights!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So that’s a great thing as
well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Probably also contributing to my
giddy happy today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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But Alas, Amanda texted me and said her Grandpa died today
and she was sad and crying and was going to leave work early and wanted to know
if I could cover the class tonight at the gym.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I said of course. Basically it’s the same workout we did Thursday night
which was great and brutal and it’s always the same people so I said sure, I
would lead the class, get everything set up. It’s a circuit class so it’s go at
your own pace. I don’t have to really do anything but explain and kind of keep
people on track.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So tonight I am leading
the class. What? But It’s cool.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So that’s
going down tonight. Good times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So here’s
today’s adorable Fashion.</div>
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And that is about all she wrote and I want to get this
posted.</div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-72671291182242753622015-08-28T09:00:00.000-07:002015-08-28T09:00:01.052-07:00Fashion FridayHere is today's Fashion Friday post. Does anyone care? probably not. I don't even care. Ha Ha. But I am a sucker for routine so I keep on doing this, week after week. It happens. It's real. And I post these for the hell of it. mostly to amuse myself I suppose. Clearly I love me some good fashion. I hate it when an ensemble doesn't come together quite as well as you were expecting and then you feel less than motivated at the gym as a result. Yup, that does happen. This is why deep down I think fashion is important. When I feel like I look good then I do work harder.<br />
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I didn’t post yesterday because life got cray busy and my
boss was in the office all day. Boo. But whatever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So quickly I’m going to just post all the
collages from Tuesday night on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Tuesday
night I felt good and wanted to run some more so my workout was actually pretty
good all things considered. 4 mile run and class.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran 10 total miles on Tuesday so that was
cool.</div>
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Yesterday I just woke up feeling really off. I knew I was
off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to keep it together most of
the day and sometimes you are more successful at that than other days.</div>
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The afternoon DRAGGED. Probably because my boss was in the
office. Oops.</div>
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I knew when I got to the gym that I was really feeling off
and tired and didn’t want to do anything. All day yesterday was a mental
struggle unfortunately. Some days are just like that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I still went to the gym.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got there late because I didn’t get to
leave work early because my boss was here and that made me just barely on time
for class which meant no warm up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh
well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Also my Garmin decided that it
wasn’t charged yesterday. I could have sworn it was but maybe it got turned on
in my gym bag all night and thus when I went to put it on, it was dead.
Boo.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This on top of my already grouchy
mood made me not a happy camper.</div>
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I took the 45 minute strength class which was good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I had to run 3 miles. No part of me
wanted to run last night.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is one of
those that was a total mental battle for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Funny how on Tuesday I was just feeling it and running was a total
breeze.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yesterday, it was pure torture.
I seriously considered not actually running the 3 miles. Then I was like, but
you need to and then I was like, I can lie and say I ran the 3 miles. Who would
really know?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could log it like I did
it, and tell people I did. Would it really matter that much?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But of course we all know I can’t do
that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I suffered thru and ran the 3
miles. But not a single step more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was
just done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I did exactly what I
needed to do and I do feel better and a sense of relief for having done that. </div>
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I was just in a funky head place yesterday all around.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I got home I did get a package from the
Gap. Last week there was a crazy sale with some coupons and I ended up getting
7 shirts for like $25.00. Great deal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So
they came in and I tried them on. And this adorable little shirt made me happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s not exactly a crop top but it does go up
a bit and show my stomach on some occasions if I move the right way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Combined with short shorts, this is very
daring for me but I actually felt pretty comfortable so that was a huge relief!
Woo hoo. I think this looks like a cute Maui outfit, right?</div>
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Funny that it’s now getting close enough I can start
thinking about actually packing clothes. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks until I
leave. What??? Yup, 3 weeks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Crazy. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Insane. </div>
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If I am being honest I think I have been off this whole week
and I’m kind of wondering if it’s the week before I get my period making me all
funky. But either way I also ate like shit and then ate too much and then mentally
was just worried about the scale.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So
much so that I considered NOT weighing myself this morning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I hate it when I get in that mental
game.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I broke some of my own rules and I
did weigh myself a couple times this week and the numbers were not very pretty
which is probably what helped to contribute to my terrible shit attitude all
week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it was mostly all fake
weight gain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was retention and bloat
and despite not eating great there was simply no way I gained that much weight
in a couple days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know this. I’m not a
dummy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve been around this weight loss
block a few times.</div>
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This morning I woke up and decided to just bite the bullet
and do it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That no matter what the scale
said that I knew that next week would be better. That there was just some
issues.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I could love myself no
matter what it said, if there was a gain or not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: red;">135.9</span></b></div>
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Yup, 135.9 which is technically up a tenth of a pound from
last week. But a tenth… who the hell cares. That’s pretty much as close to a
maintain as you are going to get and I will beyond take that! It’s technically
possible I suppose I gained a tenth of a pound this week. Still not likely but
this number is SOOO much better than any number I was seeing earlier in the
week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So there really is validity in
waiting a full week to the same exact time and place and circumstances to weigh
yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You just can’t compare
otherwise.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I did feel better this morning. Probably because I can
breathe a sigh of relief that I didn’t fuck everything up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Seriously, I feel like my history tells me I
have a tendency pre vacations to work really hard and then somehow the last
couple weeks, especially the last 2 weeks I fizzle out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It happens EVERY time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was having weird flashbacks of just going
in a downward spiral for the next 3 weeks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>A maintain I will take.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s a
TOTAL victory.</div>
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The plan for this week is to do better. The goal is to not
eat everything and anything crappy this weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After I run I want to eat, yes. I need to
eat. Probably more than normal, but it needs to be good healthy stuff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Stuff my body will actually benefit
from.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will feel good about everything
and my weekend if I can say I at least put quality foods into my body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s the goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No starvation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No depravation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just good stuff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This Thursday I feel like I dodged a bullet
and now have a fresh start at a new opportunity this week to do better. My goal
now is to finish these last 3 weeks out strong and not give up like I have tended
to do so much in the past pre vacation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will NOT give up and throw in the towel and say fuck it early.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Stay strong and focused and dedicated.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m so close.</div>
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Today’s update is really late because well life happens and
it was a pretty busy day for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So this
will be short and sweet and pretty much directly to the point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yesterday I hit the gym and wasn’t sure how I
was going to feel. Well, I felt crappy going in because I felt like a total
slob and detoxing and all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I got on
the treadmill and ran.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I warmed up with
a run and just took it easy for a few minutes, before well, starting to fly
honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt great. What?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup, I really felt good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knocked out 2 miles and then headed into
class.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Class was another fun one. 7
rounds of 7 each of 7 different exercises.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Sweat session for sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then
afterwards I needed to run more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got
on the treadmill and just felt so good that I kept going for another 3
miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Leaving me with a total of 5
miles run and class.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was exactly what
I needed. My body, my mind, my soul needed that run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Someday are just like that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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And just for the hell of it, this was one of yesterday’s Instagram
posts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I basically am just posting them
here as documentation of my life.</div>
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Anyway, back to last night.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I came home, ate, and then ate some more, and then ate some more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was hungry. It was okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did end up eating 4, yup 4 Greek yogurt
cups.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They are only 80 calories a piece,
so that is like 320 calories of yogurt but there are so many worse things than
that and I just love them so much!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s
all good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I set out all my workout
clothes for this morning and got everything ready to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The truth is, my marathon training plan has
now shifted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>On Tuesdays they no longer
require a 6.5 mile run, we are now down to 4.5 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just have this week left and then next week
I start the taper.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What??? Yup, next
week I move into taper which is less and less miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Crazy right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So I knew I only needed to run 4.5 miles today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I woke up at 5:30.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got up. I turned on the coffee machine. I
let the girls outside and it was dark. Like black as night and cold.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was like, hmm, it’s almost September and my
reasons for not running at night are getting less and less valid.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And boy did I just want to sleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I made the executive decision that I was
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I can run 4.5 miles at night. Hell I just ran 5 miles last
night so I got this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I crawled back into
bed and snuggled with my dogs for another 2 hours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it was perfect.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have to admit that the lack of sleep on
previous Tuesdays really was affecting me all day long and then on Wednesdays too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I was like screw it, let’s sleep. BUT, I
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The new plan was this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I would just wear my workout clothes to work because I have the chillest
coolest office around and no one cares if I show up in full on workout clothes
and then at lunchtime I would head over to the Snap Fitness that apparently I
can go to with my membership card that is here close to my work.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The one I go to regularly is close to my
house and it takes me 20 minutes to get there from work.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The one by work is like 5 minutes away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have never been to this location but I knew
it was there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyway, I decided that I could
just take my lunch hour and run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, I’d
be stinky and sweaty when I was done but oh well. I’ll dry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus my work is again so chill.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am typically the only one here anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So long as I don’t do it all the time it
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So the plan was set in motion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I waiting until lunch time and did in
fact drive to the gym.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can tell you
that I felt much more awake today and peppy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Not actually getting up at 5:30 AM will do that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Again, I only “needed” to run 4.5 miles per
the plan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I was just like, we will
see how I feel.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I got on the treadmill
and started it up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was a different
treadmill than I was used to so it took me a few minutes to get it adjusted
correctly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This killed my pace for the
first mile. It was a 10:40 something mile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was like whatever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But then I
was feeling really good so I upped the speed right away to a 6.2 and ran for a
while.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then I took it to a 6.3 and then
a 6.4 where I ran up to a solid 4 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I was like, I SO got this. I was feeling AMAZING.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I went to 6.5 and I ran another 2 miles at
6.5 miles per hour.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not typically
run this fast on a treadmill.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Treadmills
are miserable typically.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But for
whatever reason I was so full of energy and enthusiasm today that it just
happened.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ended up doing 6 miles in 57:29
and that included my 10:40 first mile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So realistically I ran at a much faster pace than the 9:34 it clocked me
at. But this was spectacular and I will take it. 615 calories burned.</div>
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I felt totally redeemed for not having run in the
morning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Previous mornings I only ran
6.5 miles anyway so I was only doing ½ a mile less than I normally did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All was still good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the good news is I felt so much better
physically while doing it and I felt so much better this afternoon as a result
of the run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not feel sleepy and
drained as waking up early makes me feel.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Yeah, yeah!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So this is all pretty
much fabulous. I will take it all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I
get to go to the gym again tonight and do different stuff. I will probably
still do a warm up run before class to get my heart rate up there. I still feel
fabulous and its almost 4 PM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Honestly I
feel better than I normally do at 4 PM on most days so I think the afternoon
run was quite invigorating honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So
I will warm up with a mile run or so and then take the 30 minute abs/core class
which I have previously mentioned how much I dislike. Good times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I will do something. Probably some
strength training. Something anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
don’t know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I am on the final stretch of my marathon training and right
now that is just getting my full attention.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Which is okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If the other stuff
slides a little until after Maui, so be it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is where my heart <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>is fully
at right now and it needs to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Speaking of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I posted this
this afternoon. And I am just going to copy what I posted from Instagram
because it says it all.</div>
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<span lang="EN" style="mso-ansi-language: EN;">This right here
is one of my favorite posts ever and I am going to tell you why. </span></div>
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<span data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text2:0:$text0:0">I’ve talked a lot
about how secretly it has always been my desire to run a </span><a data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text2:0:$entity0:0" href="https://instagram.com/explore/tags/marathon/">marathon</a><span data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text2:0:$end:0">. But given my life history
and the reality that I didn’t run my first race until about 2 years ago, it was
a dream I kept buried deep. For years I ran on the treadmill and did NOT
consider myself a runner. But that didn’t stop me from wishing that someday I
could accomplish such an epic feat. In fact, for years I cut out running ads as
motivation from various fitness magazines. In time, I assumed they were lost
for the ages. This weekend I happened to open a long lost drawer and stumbled
across a folder full of some of these torn magazine pages. And there it was.
26.2 miles of heart. I actually remember this ad vividly. I would read it and
wonder if I’d ever be brave enough to run a real marathon. </span></span></div>
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<span data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text4:0:$text0:0">I knew I kept this
crazy </span><a data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text4:0:$entity0:0" href="https://instagram.com/explore/tags/dream/">dream</a><span data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text4:0:$end:0"> in my heart for a long time.
And sure enough, the bottom of one of those pages provided a date. April 2008.
That’s well over 7 years ago my friends. For a minimum of 7 years but
realistically longer, I have had this dream. I never ever spoke this dream out
loud. I have no idea why. Fear. I am sure it was fear of failure. That is a very
long time to carry around something that clearly means a whole lot to you. </span></span></div>
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<span data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text6:0:$end:0">And in exactly 24 days
it’s going to happen. I am not even sure I’ve fully come to terms with the
lasting ramifications of realizing a dream that I’ve carried around with me for
so long. I can’t even put into words why it’s this important to me, other than
it just is. Clearly. 7 plus years of wishing for it. And now it’s FINALLY going
to happen. I can’t express at all how fulfilled crossing that finish line will
make me. I have tears in my eyes just thinking about it. Imagine the day?
Accomplishing this goal is a BIG deal. </span><br data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$newline7:0" />
<span data-reactid=".1.0.0.0.2.1.0.0.1.$text8:0:$end:0">I don’t even have the
words to tell you what this will all mean. Because here is the real visible
proof that 7 years ago I was hoping for this day. I now know that it simply was
always meant to be. That destiny was someday going to lead me to both that
start and finish line. I AM a REAL runner. End of Story.</span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="mso-ansi-language: EN;">Seriously, in all
honesty I’ve<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>been cutting out marathon
quotes for longer than 7 years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Pretty
much from when I started this whole journey like 11 years ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But to have some visual real tangible proof
from 7 years ago is so crazy and cool.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is pretty much what it all means to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is why this is so important and my real
everything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It really touches my soul in
a way that nothing else has.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I am
going to cry. Cry so much honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Happy tears of joy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is the
biggest lifelong dream.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I can’t
wait!</span></div>
Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-6488686790428134752015-08-24T11:10:00.000-07:002015-08-24T11:10:14.319-07:00Margaritas Happen<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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Ugh I feel like shit this morning. Both mentally and
physically and it’s basically because I have to be honest I have been eating
pretty shitty in the grand scheme of things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You know how there is that point when you just go, fuck it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And you sort of just dive head first into
crap.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have been working so hard, so
hard, so hard… and then it was like a little snap the past couple days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even Thursday and Friday night I was pretty
much not doing my best in terms of caring.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And then the weekend happened and boy oh boy, that wasn’t all that
pretty.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The food really overshadowed
some of the other cool parts of the weekend which is really too bad in the
grand scheme of things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess I shall
try and decipher my feelings on all of it.</div>
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Friday night I went and got the massage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was actually pretty good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was free so you know you can’t beat
that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And he is such a nice guy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything was pretty good until he got to my
calves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My calves were seriously so
freaking tight I couldn’t tell if him touching them was pleasurable or just
pure hell.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I realized instantly how
knotted and tight they were. I didn’t even know honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How dumb is that?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess I just don’t think about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But holy hell my calves were like one giant
crazy knot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He spent an extra amount of
time on them and was like, yup, you’re a runner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He pressed and did all these crazy things and
honestly I do think it felt good and all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>He is literally in his last week of massage school so all the technical stuff
is very fresh for him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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When I got up from the massage I literally almost fell
over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I instantly felt light headed and
like well, all this negative shit had been released from my body. It was
CRAZY.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know I get his feeling when I
get massages but this one seemed a little more intense. I drank water.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was afraid I’d pass out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But my calves felt better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know he could probably spend hours on them
alone and not touch the crazy knotted core of them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But truthfully, I did feel better. I went
home and seriously mushed into the couch.</div>
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I had to wake up early for the run on Saturday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We tried to get everything set out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ate the spaghetti with abandonment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No measure. No worry. I was running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in the
idea that I am running a long distance so it’s okay to eat. Yes, it is okay to
eat, but I am not burning like unlimited calories here and at some point it’s
not okay to eat everything and anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So alas, I ate and we went to bed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>4:30 AM comes and up we go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In all
honesty I was more awake than I thought I’d be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was more awake then I am on most every Tuesday morning when I get up
early.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Don’t really know why.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe more excitement perhaps.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was actually excited to run 16 miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am going to tell you why and then I’m going
to tell you what actually happened and why I think it contributed to my
tailspin of a weekend.</div>
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I was secretly expecting 16 miles to not be a big deal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I run 13 all the time and always feel like I
have more in me when I’m done. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran two
freaking half marathons the weekend before so I was getting overly confident
and cocky and that is ALWAYS a bad idea.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was expecting and or hoping that running 16 miles wouldn’t be that
awful and therefore I’d come away feeling amazing and confident and feeling
like running a marathon was totally going to be possible.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>None of these things happened.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I left that running feeling VERY defeated and
scared and I think this idea tainted my weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>BUT let me talk about the run because there
were factors, as there always are.</div>
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Like I said, I felt surprisingly well for being that
early.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This being a small group training
run, there were actually about 50 of us which wasn’t bad honestly. Nothing
official, although this was organized by a race company and therefore the race
director was there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He said that the
good news was it was registered as an official half in the books so it could/would
count as a half time if you wanted it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
guess some people are big on that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They
started time when we took off and then as we came across the “finish” they
recorded are time. So that was actually nice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The run was free and they did have 2 aid stations set up for us and at
the finish goodies and snacks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That was
lovely.</div>
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When we got to the finish line we all took a shuttle to the
start. This was a point to point race.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We waited at the finish for the other people to arrive. It was cold.
Bone chilling cold. Was not expecting that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was in a tank top and shivering.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I had to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There was a
porta potty at the park.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But alas, it
was closed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Couldn’t use that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The race director said no worries there’s a
restroom at the start line, the state park ones.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cool.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We boarded the bus and eventually took off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Got to the “start” line and the restrooms
were closed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I REALLY had to pee at this
point. Son of a bitch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The guys just
went out in the woods.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Lucky them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In hindsight I should have just done it right
then and there honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know
what I was thinking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Wait, I was
thinking, somewhere along the way on this very public trail there would be a
restroom/porta-potty set up and things would just work out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>(There were multiple along the way, they were
all closed. It did NOT work itself out!)</div>
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Anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We took off
and I started booking it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can tell I
am getting much faster. I can tell I had rest. I could tell I wanted to
run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was FLYING.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I literally felt like I was flying.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was amazing and I felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Except from the very first second my stomach
started to build up the pressure from the knowledge I had to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was running such an awesome pace and I was like, fuck though, I have
to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Pee. Pee. Pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup over and over in my mind repeating the
words. I have to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh shit I have to
pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I ran on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Running fast and amusing my brain with little
pee chants.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was having some KILLER
times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I looked down at my watch and
around mile 3 I was at an 8:30 pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What
the fuck, I never run that fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew
I had my fastest mile already a 7:49.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Yeah, there might have been a couple downhills in that, but still a 7:49
mile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I knew I was going to have my
fastest 5k time because I was at such a great pace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And yet, I had to pee.</div>
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The run itself was gorgeous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Beautiful area.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And mile 4 ticked
by and I was still at an awesome pace. Flying.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And then mile 5 came and the pressure was starting to build up in my
stomach.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What happens when you hold in
pee or anything really for too long is your stomach starts to revolt and build
pressure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Uncomfortable pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew I was eventually going to have to
pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I knew it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But selfishly I was running so good and I
knew I was going to be close to a 10k PR time too so I ran on. The thing was,
it was a lovely well-traveled woodsy path. Paved.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But still woodsy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My eyes kept darting to places to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But there were always people about.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Pee. Pee. Pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The chant repeated. The pressure hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t think our bodies were intended to
hold in pee for long periods of time, especially in the middle of vigorous physical
activity.</div>
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Part of my brain logically knew that I’d run better if I’d
just allowed myself to pee, but I couldn’t help it I wanted a 10K PR.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In fact I was running so good I had moments
of visions of a sub 2 hour half time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
was really hoping for that. But I knew the pee pressure was getting bad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At about mile 6.5 there were restrooms.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran towards them. Locked. Son of a
Bitch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kept running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At mile 7 it became a lot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then finally at about mile 8 I had a
mental crack.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I hit a wall.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I hit a wall where it just hurt. And now it
wasn’t just pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was all the pressure
and holding it in for over an hour while running and now I had to poop as
well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sorry, but that is what happens
when you run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A sad little side effect
that isn’t discussed much.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was having
digestive issues for sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I was
farting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I was like crap.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This HURTS.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And from pretty much the
start of mile 8 on, I kept browsing the sidelines for any place to pull off. I
couldn’t handle it anymore.</div>
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A little shy of 9 miles I just found myself darting off into
the woods to pee.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I looked around and
just went for it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just peed. I couldn’t
get myself to do the other thing because well, I do have some standards.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I peed. I felt better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But it didn’t alleviate the pressure entirely
unfortunately.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had caused too much
damage by holding it in that long. And now all the pressure was still
there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I knew that I could kiss my
sub 2 hour half time good bye.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My body
was in pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had gone out way to
fast.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was running way beyond my
typical speed while trying to hold in pee and it was now catching up with
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I got to like mile 10 I almost
wanted to cry. I wanted it to be done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My stomach.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not my joints or anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Miles 10-12 were hell.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I really wanted to just stop and walk.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The pressure would build and I would think I was going to poop my pants
and then I’d stop for a second and let it pass and maybe fart and let it go and
start running again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This occurred multiple
times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My pace was awful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There were more restrooms at mile 11 and I
darted for them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Locked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Had I just been able to poop at this point I
probably would have felt better too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
nope.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I finally hit about 12 miles on my
GPS and I was so thankful. But so tired.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I was going so slow but I knew I was close to the training run finish
line.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I made the turns and came across
the line and somehow ultimately still managed my fastest half time to
date.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m not entirely sure I feel happy
or proud of it because of how horrible I basically felt from mile 8 on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And those last miles were just awful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So yes, I had my fastest half time despite
all of that because the first 7 miles were pretty damned good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Aside from pee pressure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I crossed. I stopped.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I got water. I sat down for a moment and met Chris. I felt like
SHIT.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was so fucking hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And mentally I was done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, I had promised myself I was running
16 miles. I was excited to see how I’d hold up on a 16 mile run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And if it wasn’t for verbally committing
online to running 16 miles I think I would have just stopped at that 13.1.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I told Chris that we HAD to run 3
more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That I made a promise and it was
going to happen.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I still had to use
the bathroom. BADLY. And the porta potty at the park was still closed. So after
we sat for a couple minutes I got myself back up and we started jogging.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And almost instantly the pressure returned as
did the need to use the bathroom. Chris was quick to make a plan to get us to
the nearest establishment with a restroom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Less than ½ a mile away was a grocery store that we ran towards.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And FINALLY I got to use the bathroom
properly. It was a lovely relief.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I
felt much better after using it.</div>
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But at this point my body had been traumatized for the last
2 hours and running more miles seemed awful. But I made us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it was slow and I kind of wanted to
cry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it was so God damned hard to
run another 3 miles that I was getting so fucking scared about running another
10 on top of that. Meaning a full 26.2 mile distance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just wanted to finish out those 3 miles and
be done.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And at this point parts of my
legs did start to ache. GREAT I thought.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And when we finally finished my overall pace was actually really
fabulous and I was proud of the fact that we did it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Those last 3 miles were ran at about a 10:50-11:00
minute mile pace and honestly my marathon training plan has me running my whole
marathon at an 11:03 pace as the goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So this was okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I promise
you, I did NOT have another 10 miles in me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Those last 3 were so fucking awful it wasn’t funny.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that is why I felt defeated despite
breaking every single record my watch tracks.</div>
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Yes, I set all those fabulous records and all, and I ran 16
miles in 2 hours 34 minutes 18 seconds and that is GREAT, but it was so much
harder than I thought it was going to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>In hindsight since I ended up having to just pee in the bushes anyway I
wish I would have just done it at the start. I truly think holding in the pee
for so long created the pressure that was unbearable and therefore helped to
create the poo issue later.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I guess
these are lessons we learn.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is why
we train.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’d much rather any of this
happened to me this weekend than on the actual race day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Don’t ignore pee my friends. That’s my take
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I could not believe how hard it was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I am also going to go with the idea that
it was hard from mile 8 on for me honestly and most of the time half’s aren’t
hard for me at mile 8. And therefore it was clearly just a rough day so perhaps
running 16 miles was extra tough on that day too. There have been plenty of
times that running 13 wasn’t as awful as that felt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That after running 13 I was sure I could run
more, because I felt great.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t feel
good for quite a while on this run so therefore it’s probably not the best
indicator. But it still left me feeling mentally crappy.</div>
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I thought I was so much more prepared for this than I really
was.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought I’d go out there and run
16 no problem, that I’d feel great and think I could keep going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>HA HA.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I got cocky and it kicked my ass.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Running 16 miles is NOT easy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
alas, I get to run 18.5 this weekend so<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I guess I get another shot at it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I pray to god it goes better than this weekend because this is
really my last long run before Maui and I’d like to leave it off on a confident
note.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyhow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I did it with a pretty decent time all things considered.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Afterwards, both Chris and I were exhausted and starving and
cranky. I ate a really large 12 inch foot long sandwich and then showered and
got ready for my second adventure of the night. Chris took a nap. I can’t nap
after these things if I have other stuff to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So I got showered up and cleaned up and waited for Chirs.</div>
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We were heading out to Amanda’s bodybuilding show.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Back in the car and back on the road
again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really wasn’t excited to go to
the show.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t excited about paying
$50 to watch people get up and pose on stage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But I was doing it for Amanda.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Pretty much every expectation I ever had about a bodybuilding show was
confirmed. It was pretty much awful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
this was a short, small event.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But at
least I went to one and therefore don’t have to do another one for a long
time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was so fake.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Those bodies are almost fake because the
lengths they have to go to the week before to get their body to look like that
is ridiculous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For the 48 hours before
the show they get to drink 16 ounces of water. That’s it. That’s all the liquid
they get.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Deplete your body so it
pops.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s just insane.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Amanda looked great. She’s beautiful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love her to death and she was so excited we
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The show reaffirmed that I will NEVER EVER consider doing a
show.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s expensive as hell and it’s a glorified
beauty pageant.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes there is other
criteria than your beauty that they are judging you on, but come on, it’s still
getting judged based on your body.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I
don’t see any appeal in that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Amanda
spent like $275 on her show swimsuit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You have to pay for hair and makeup and shoes and spray tan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You have to pay for a drug test (this was a natural
show at least so no steroids)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She had to
pay a general $200 flat fee to enter. And THEN $75 for each category she wanted
to compete in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She only did 1 category.
She should have done more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There were 8
girls in her category, she ended up getting 4<sup>th</sup> place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was fine, but she was disappointed I
think. I<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>think she looked better than at
least 1 of the girls who beat her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
what the hell do I know?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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Afterwards, after like 2 ½ hours of watching this horrific
show, we finally all went out to eat for pizza.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There were 11 of us. Amanda’s family and a couple other friends. At this
point both Chris and I were STARVING.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We
ordered a medium pizza and I seriously ate half the fucking thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then the guilt set in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ate half a pizza. Guilt. Guilt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I still wanted more food. How insane
is that?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had a great time hanging out
with everyone honestly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So that was
good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We both enjoyed the company and
the night out. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That was worth it. We
both really did have a good time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
then I went home and ate 2 pop tarts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And then went to bed.</div>
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I really wanted to wake up on Sunday and do something, but I
was just tired.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I spent a long time
in bed. Just lying there which felt nice to get to do on occasion.</div>
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I just snuggled the doggies and stayed in bed far too
long.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Finally I got up and made coffee
and just didn’t feel like doing anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I ate. Yup, ate some more which totally thru me into a tailspin from the
get go on the day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Fuck.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I got dressed and we decided to take
the dogs to the dog park to play because well they deserved it.</div>
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Love those little girls and there pretty happy faces.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we got home I had every intention of
doing something active. Instead I was tired and I ATE.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And this is where it all just went to shit. I
ate everything and anything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So much
crap.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sigh.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It happened. And then we realized that we
needed to go get chicken. It was like 7 PM and I had spent the day sitting on
the couch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At some point I officially
declared it a rest day.</div>
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And then we get to the grocery store and got our chicken for
meal prep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then we took the dogs for
a walk in the evening and coming back all of a sudden out of nowhere I got the
craving for a margarita. I haven’t had a margarita in forever or even thought
about it really and suddenly it’s all I wanted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Chris was like you want to?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
at that point I was like fuck it, yeah.</div>
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So we got in the car and went to our Mexican food place we
haven’t been to in forever. It was after 8 PM so it was happy hour and I got a margarita
and we ordered a quesadilla appetizer and it was all like heaven to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I drank a 2<sup>nd</sup> margarita. Yup.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was exactly what I wanted. And was craving
and didn’t even realize it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I ate
bad food and drank bad food and it happened.</div>
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2 margaritas was enough to get me feeling kind of
tipsy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was so freaking tired at this
point. SOOOO tired. We came home and pretty much went to bed. I slept pretty
decent last night thankfully.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But now
that leads me to this morning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And all
the guilt. Sigh.</div>
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And I know I should not feel any guilt and I’m trying not
to. It’s not really guilt, it’s really a feeling of crap. Sluggish and drained
and it’s because of poor food choices.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
feel stuffed and bloated and less than my normal self.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But maybe I just needed to get this I don’t
care weekend out of my system so that I can focus on the next 4 weeks full
force and remember why I am doing any of this to begin with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I deserved a fuck it weekend. I did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I understand that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t like how it made my fee physically so
it’s time to suck it up and get myself back on track.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is in fact life and what happens and
that is okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is how you maintain
and live a real life. Margaritas happen.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And they are delicious and they can happen.</div>
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What defines me is how I pull myself back together today and
get my body back to a happy healthy place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That WILL occur today. It already is in the process of occurring.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am detoxing as we speak. I need a solid detox.
I think I put to high of expectations on myself about my run and when it didn’t
entirely happen the way I wanted it to, I felt disappointed and like a
failure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s so crazy because I kept
saying to Chris in the car ride home that despite setting every single record
for myself, I don’t feel good about that run at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know, I am insane. I get that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But lessons were in fact learned this weekend
and that is the most important part of this whole thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Forgiveness might be the best lesson to take
away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That and seriously ALWAYS find a
way to pee before a run.</div>
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Emily Canadyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06156142180861074642noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2179546548163775766.post-58969052030033320602015-08-21T11:09:00.002-07:002015-08-21T11:09:50.234-07:00Friday means rest<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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Good Friday morning my friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s a good Friday because well, all Friday’s
are pretty good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Today is 4 weeks until
Maui. And yes, I am going to keep this countdown alive and going for the next 4
weeks. It’s probably mostly all I shall talk about.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I mean, it’s mostly all I think about, so why
wouldn’t it be mostly all I talk about? 4 weeks from right now I’m on a plane
flying to Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>CRAZY!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And exciting and happiness and nervous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m less nervous right now but I am CERTAIN
that on the actual day my nerves are going to be thru the roof.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I mean, I was way chill before I ran my first
half marathon up until the night before when I was so sick I wanted to
puke.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I puke when I get too
nervous.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s my little nervous
habit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyway, enough about that.</div>
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Last night I went off to the gym for boot camp class.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did NOT warm up before class and I can
honestly say I totally felt that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
barely worked that hard as a result. We did 8 exercises, 3 rounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was hard don’t get me wrong but not sweat
dripping constant movement.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was fine
except when I was done with the half hour I had only burned like 130 calories.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that is simply not enough for the evening.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I debated just going home but was like, no that’s
lame.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are dressed and here just go
do something else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was going to maybe
do the stair climber but that machine was in use. Fuck.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I ended up on the treadmill of
course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t need to run, that is
why it wasn’t my first inclination.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Today is rest day but I don’t mind taking 2 days off from running before
a big run. Whatever, I told myself I could just go REALLY slow and burn some
calories. I ended up doing 3 miles of course. I did slow it down but honestly
it felt fine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Comfortable of
course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nothing fancy, nothing life
shattering.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got my calorie burn to over 500 and called
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After that I ran into the grocery store which is right next
door to the gym and got more Greek yogurt. Well, I went in for the yogurt
because I am not going to lie I’ve been obsessed with it lately.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything goes in spurts. But damned lately it’s
like my total go-to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I eat an 80 calorie
yogurt with some sprinkles in it and it’s like the BEST thing ever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of course I ended up picking up way to much
other stuff, all good of course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Salad
dressing, bananas, coffee creamer. You now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Came home, took the doggies for
a walk and pretty much called it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Scratch that. I got a tub of blue diamond coconut almonds and those
things are addictive and delicious and I pretty much ate the whole can. Again,
not the end of the world. It’s freaking almonds for crying out loud.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But still. We had spaghetti for dinner
because I’m trying out this carb loading for 2 days prior to a long run
day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Plus you know, excuse to eat more
pasta.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t track my food intake
last night.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It happens.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know it was too much but boy its freeing to
just dish out pasta directly onto your plate and not weigh or measure any of
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Granted at this point in my life I
have a fairly good internal judge for how much is enough of stuff.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But still.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Felt slightly bad and yet slightly didn’t care.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It happens.</div>
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So I ate too much.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Whatever.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then I got some
lovely doggie snuggles which are the best thing ever!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My Bella really is quite the cuddle bug.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I am sitting on the couch she wants to be
on my lap, giving me kisses.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love a
good doggie kiss but eventually I don’t want to be licked anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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So yesterday, I also posted this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is inside my bikini drawer at home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A couple weekends ago when I reorganized my
clothes and my drawers, I actually got to move stuff around and organize.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One of the drawers that got a makeover was the
swimsuit drawer as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay, its
bikini drawer. There’s not a full on swimsuit 1 piece in there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The funny thing is, I NEVER wear these,
right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I have so many of them and
they are so pretty.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I clearly don’t need
to bring ALL of them to Maui with me, but boy am I looking forward to wearing
them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just pray that the confidence I
have today carries over to when I’m actually in Maui.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes I feel great and ready beforehand
and then something about actually being on the beach in public in the bikini
with other women who look great in bikini’s and I get extremely self-conscious
and all messed up in the head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s
pretty much happened most every time on most every vacation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hopefully having this extra amount of
confidence in myself right now at this point in my life helps to eliminate some
of that anxiety.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nonetheless, I’m
excited right now.</div>
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So that brings us to this morning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel pretty okay today. Nothing fancy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But hell, it’s Friday and that is worth being
excited about all on its own.</div>
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I also noticed this morning my abs looked pretty
decent.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not understand the rhyme or
reason as to why someday I can’t see my abs for shit but then other times they
are there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Who knows. I have learned to
not question it so much and just embrace the days I can see them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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My<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>belly button is
fucked up because of the loose skin.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That is loose skin around there that makes it look long and deformed
instead of tight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is me being super
self-critical and that is a shit attitude.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I know it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Instead of looking at
my deformed belly button I should look at the top part and the ab muscles that
I actually see there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes, there are
true abs inside and I actually know<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>these. Even on days when I can’t see them, I definitely feel a hard
muscled core in there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not think
you can get abs from exercise.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Abs are
just mostly diet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do think running has
helped tremendously on the abs front because it does require so much of my
core.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve always had really good core
strength and I think that is from a lifetime of running.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s just nice to sometimes see the actual
muscles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t live my life by it or
entirely work hard to get abs, it’s not my top priority. If abs happen while in
pursuit of my other passions then that is great. I mean, I won’t turn them
down!</div>
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So the fact that it is Friday means its rest day. I do need
a rest day so that I can effectively run 16 miles tomorrow morning. It is going
to be hot tomorrow morning so that is only going to add to the misery of it
all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sigh.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Therefore today I must relax and rest and let
me legs recover to run said distance tomorrow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But guess what? I get myself a free massage tonight.. what???<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yup. A guy that goes to the gym that I’ve
known for quite a while is going to massage school.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think he’s in his second year and in doing
so he has to log hours of practice for free.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>He has given Amanda a lot of massages so it’s nothing creepy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He’s a very nice older married gentleman.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like in his late 50’s.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He’s a hippy guy with long hair.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Totally seems fitting that he wants to do
massage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But it’s awesome.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I texted him and right after work I’m
going to his house. He has a “studio” set up, like a massage parlor.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not worried or creeped out at all. I
know this guy and like I said Amanda has gotten several massages from him. All
professional.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He was like, be prepared
to fill out the paperwork and then the first massage is 90 minutes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m like hell yeah!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A free 90 minute massage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Also this is very good because its rest day and otherwise I’d probably
go home and just end up eating things I don’t need to eat so this REALLY works
for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I haven’t had a massage in forever so honestly I’m way
excited for this!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Good times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But tomorrow I have to wake up pretty damned
early for the run.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is not a half
marathon but it is an organized training run by a local running group so it is
an official half marathon course.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No
medal. No shirt. But no cost either. There weren’t any half marathons this
weekend to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sigh. But the point is,
we are meeting at 6:30 to take a shuttle from the finish line to the start line
and running at 7 AM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The location is
over an hour away. So we basically need to leave our house at like 5 AM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Meaning wake up at 4:30 AM.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Doesn’t that sound like fun?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The things we do because we are motivated and
committed to this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After we run the 13.1
miles Chris and I are just going to run another 3 on our own, because we half
to! This is all fine and dandy but tomorrow is going to be a crazy day for
us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After we do that we are going to
drive home and shower and do all that stuff and then tomorrow night Amanda is
doing a bodybuilding show in Vancouver.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>(Back up the freeway again another hour drive)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I really don’t want to go to the show because
I think bodybuilding is sick and mean but I love Amanda and she is my best
friend and supports me unconditionally and therefore I support her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is very important to her so I am going
to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Chris and I are both going to
go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She is there for me when I need her
so I need to be there for her. </div>
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After the show everyone is going out for pizza, so that is
going to happen.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That will be my cheat
meal for the week and honestly I will have ran 16 miles at that point so my
body can probably handle it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s the
great thing about running, I get to eat!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My body is burning up everything these days. Seriously.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can tell my metabolism is really high right
now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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I have no plans for Sunday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We are going to sleep in, because we will be crazy tired at that point
for sure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But I would like to do something
physical and active, but we shall see. Maybe a hike. It’s been a while since we
went on a hike and honestly it would be nice to get out in nature.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But boy at this point that is a long time
away so we will just have to wait and see how it all plays out!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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